Wednesday, June 30, 2010

LHA Weigh In

As swamped as I have been the last week, I have not forgotten about my LHA weigh in today. I jumped on the scale this morning before I ran off to work.

Last week: 224.4 lbs
This week: 222.5 lbs
Difference: -1.9 lbs
Exercise: 330 mins

So I lost the weight that I had gained last week! I was getting worried because I weighed myself on Saturday or Sunday and I was up to over 225 lbs so it must have been water, but it did scare me. I don't normally do weigh in's when it is not my weigh in day but this week has been super busy and I haven't tracked any of my food like I meant to (I think my journal hid under the bed, I have to find it). Quick run down of my hellish week thus far:

Friday: Wasn't too bad. I worked at Curves in the evening but it was stressful because my boss wanted to close the club July 3rd because she didn't think that anyone would be coming in. I work 9 hours a week at Curves and when she closes on Saturdays, I lose 5 hours. If she had a real reason to close, like a stat (the Canada day stat is Thursday, so we are closed that day already), I would understand but all the ladies that came in couldn't understand why she was closing. I know why; it's so she can save like $55, but she doesn't see that if she keeps closing on weekends to save a few bucks, she is going to lose members, costing her thousands of dollars over the course of the year and chasing away potential clients that want a gym with better business hours.

Saturday: Worked at Curves in the morning 8am-1pm. Sped home to give my 90 lbs beagle/lab dog who HATES water a bath because he seriously stunk. Hopped in the shower, did my hair and make-up then drove out to Richmond to volunteer for the roller derby!! Very exciting. I sold tickets at the door so it was easy and I got in for free, not to mention the free snacks and pizza after the bouts. I got home around 11pm then crashed into bed, missing the after party downtown which I would have love to been at.

Sunday: Started my job at Culture Craze in Burnaby! WOOHOO! I love my new job. I worked from 10:45am to 3pm, then I drove home and went to the gym until 6pm or so.

Monday: Working at my reception job in Vancouver. I worked from 9am to 5pm and then I drove home, flipping off several drivers in the process as I crawled over over the freeway and bridges. Once I got home, I ate dinner quickly and then went to the gym to see Nathan at 7pm to 8pm. We did weights and I still can't lift my arms for too long. I did some mild cardio after to walk off the stifness in my legs so I was home around 9pm again. Exhausted, I fell into bed.

Tuesday: Worked with my mom doing invoicing and filing at her job from 8:30am to 2pm then I had to race over to Burnaby again, getting stuck behind slow cars and red lights, to get to Culture Craze for 3pm. I worked there until 9:15pm and I got home around 10ish again.

Today: More work with my mom at 8:30am. I left at 2 and I got a quick breather before I start at Culture Craze again tonight from 4pm to 9:15pm. I get to work with the boss-man tonight, so I hope it goes well and he doesn't change his mind about hiring me because I love working there too much!

Hopefully with tomorrow being Canada day, I get to sleep in a bit before I have to clean my tornado wrecked room and go see Nathan again at 4pm!

I hope you're all having a good weigh in day, I don't have the time to check out my competitors' blogs just yet but I hope it all goes well for you!

Busy like Bees

Just a quick note to say that I intend to be back soon! I hope to get a good post in tomorrow. I've been super duper busy. Since Friday, I've worked everyday somewhere: Curves, my Vancouver reception job, I just started at Culture Craze and my mom has me doing invoicing at her office. So I have been seriously busy and I haven't had a chance to blog. My google reader says that I have 122 unread items and it's still early today! I saw Nathan on Monday and I'm also going to see him again tomorrow, I just wish that I was able to get to the gym between then and tomorrow but I'm at my mom's office today until 2 and then I have to drive to my job at Culture Craze and I work there until 9:15pm. By then, I'll have been on my feet for several hours and there is no way I'm going to want to rush off to the gym before it closes at 11pm.

I'm looking forward to getting back to blogging and reading all your blogs. How is everyone else's week going? How do you stay fit and healthy when you are swamped with work and duties?

Friday, June 25, 2010

Yes, It Has Come to This...

I'm going to talk about something that has been raising eyebrows across the blogosphere as of late. It is a reoccurring theme that pops up every now and then, and it has reared it head (of sorts). Keep in mind, I didn't start this. If you're going to blame anyone, ANYONE, for what you are about to read, blame Mrs. Fatass @ "Did I Just Eat that Out Loud?" (if you don't follow her, you really ought to, she cracks me up). Well a few months ago she posted "Hello, Kitty (part one)" (and then there was a follow up recently "Hello, Kitty (part two)") in response to Drazil's post about this whole issue. Bikini waxing and maintenance of the hair down there. Unlike Mrs. Fatass, I am a little hairier than most girls. Well, I may not be hairier, but I have dark, thick hair on my head and it just grows that way. I have always had hairy arms and I hated it.

A few weeks ago, I was complaining to a friend of mine about how often I have to shave my legs and it seems that I am always missing a good chunk of it, and it's always the same chunk. I'll look at my legs one night and find a hair or two that are at least 3 times longer then anything around it. I'll even go over that part several times and feel down m legs when I'm in the shower thinking that I got it all, only to exit and an hour later find a stubborn hair. Well, my friend said that she uses a hair removal cream so she doesn't have to shave as often. Interesting. I bought one years ago but it made my skin feel weird, not to mention the burning hair scent that lingered around the bathroom for an hour or two, prompting my brother to ask "What in the hell did you do in there?!". But the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to try it again, so with a fresh paycheque in the bank, I went to Wal-Mart. There is a whole freaking aisle of hair removal crap but I tried not to hang around too long or grab too many bottles and boxes on the way out as not to raise suspicion of HOW MUCH hair removal I truly need. Well, when I was there I was thinking about Mrs. Fatass and Drazil and that has grown in the time that I have been single.

I used to shave once in a while, but I always got the bumpies and it just made me look like I had some crazy STI after an hour or two. Not too attractive. Well, wouldn't you know it, they keep the waxing kits next to the hair burning creams. My interest was peaked. I could try it. Could be interesting. On a side note, I have a seriously overactive imagination so I have this reocurring daydream that me and some hot faceless guy with an accent meet and totally hit it off but then I am terrified because my coochie looks like a beaver that stuck it's tail in an electrical outlet. I bought a binkini/face kit because my lip was getting a little dark, something I have never had to worry about before, and left the store (with the hair cream as well) trying not to attract too much attention to myself.

I waited until much later to attempt the de-furring. After commiting the instructions to memory, I started with my lip. The little wax stips look so innocent in the pretty box and they were even a nice calming green. This can't be that bad, I've had my eyebrows threaded which hurt, this can't be any worse than that. I put the wax on my upper lip and rubbed it down. I mentally prepped myself and 3...2...1...RIP.


My lip went numb. And then I knew that I had to do the other side. Again, it burned. I was suddently very wary of trying the bikini set, so instead I put the cream crap on my legs and then got in the shower (the bottle said the cream was water resistant and you had to wait a minute before getting the shower, which I did, but the cream mostly washed off when I got in the shower). I still hadn't totally dismissed the idea of the bikini wax and I thought that I would try it after I got out of the shower. The skin would be a little bit softer and maybe it would hurt less. Well, I tired to position myself so that I could look in the mirror at the same time to make sure I wasn't going to rip anything too important. I put the wax strip on and held my breath. 3...2...1...PULLLLL!!

HOLYMOT....hey wait a minute...

If I had to say which one hurt more, I would truly have to say my lip, and I was not expecting that. The bikini wax was alright, there was some blood, yes, (and now the morning after, there is some bruising that actually looks like a hickey, but trust me, it's no hickey, [I don't think I held the skin tight enough])but it didn't hurt nearly as bad as I thought it was going to. I didn't do the whole bit, just the edges, but I have a feeling that the closer you get to the mmmhhhmm-hmm the more it hurts. I think that when I get some cash I'm going to pay a professional to do it and I'm going to bring my waxing-experienced friend with me for moral support. Because that's what girlfriends are for, to hold your hand while a total stranger rips out your pubies.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Alright, enough of the stalling...

Let's get this over with.

Last week: 222.8 lbs
This week: 224.4 lbs
Difference: +1.6 lbs
Exercise Minutes: 205 mins

Worst week for exercise since the beginning of this challenge and the eating wasn't great either. I can take it in stride, I can't expect for perfect numbers every week, especially when I don't put the effort in.

In other news, I got one of the jobs that I was interviewed for last week!! I'm going to be selling body jewelry at a kiosk in this really big mall in Vancouver. I know it doesn't sound great but I am passionate about piercings and body jewelry and they are going to be giving me full time hours. With any luck, I'll be able to buy a car in a couple months or so. I don't know what I am going to do about my job at Curves yet, I really love working there but my boss is kind of crazy and I hate trying to juggle two jobs when I have to do shift work. I'll have to wait and see how it turns out.

This coming week on the weight loss front, I really have to get back to tracking my food and exercise. I didn't exercise at all between Friday and Monday which is why I had such low numbers this week. I really need to get on this, I can't spend any more time working at half capacity.

PS: I FINALLY added pictures to my "1000 Words in Pictures" section, click the tab at the top of the page to check it out if you haven't yet. Some pictures are pretty old, a few newer ones too. There is also an excert from my very first blog post on "The Starting Line" page.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Who is Your Thinspiration?

One of my main problems when I'm trying to eat healthy is stopping myself from eating when I'm bored and one way that I deal with it is by thinking about what I really want out of my life. I think about how much better I'm going to feel when I'm thinner and healthy and how much more confident I will feel. If I still need an extra boost when I'm feeling down, I pull out my thin pictures, a.k.a. "Thinspiration". They are pictures I keep around of my favorite celebs and when I need a bit of a refresher, I take a peek at some of these wonderful ladies. 

Like Kate Winslet.

Or Kelly Clarkson.


And one of my new favorite women, Idina Menzel.

Who is your thinspiration?

Reading this back this morning, I felt that I needed to add an addendum. I know that the term "Thinspiration" is very much a part of the pro-ana community, but I don't think that because it is, it should be a negative word. This blog originally started as an anti-ana blog, but that is a whole other story to tell at a later time. When I think of my personal thinspiration (it is a very clever word actually), I think of real women. My thinspiration will always be curvy women. I love my hips and my boobs, they define me as a woman that I want to be.

I hope that people reading my post don't take it the wrong way. I am not supporting the anorexic lifestyle (for some it is a lifestyle and for others it is a disorder) and I hope that they get the help they need before it's too late and they hurt themselves. If you want to address me privately about this issue,  please do not hesitate to email me, my email for my blog is

OMG Did I Really Eat That?!

Here is what my weekend looked like:

Saturday: Working at 8am, didn't really get a chance to pack a breakfast so I went out to Tim Horton's and got a breakfast sandwich, yogurt, and a large steeped tea, 2 milk 2 sugar. Came home around 1pm and totally forgot that Sunday was Father's Day until my mom asked me what I was getting my dad....what, just because I'm almost 20 means I have to start buying him stuff on special occasions?? WTF... I then waited for my brother to get home from camping to ask him what he wanted to get for my dad. My dad LOVES margaritas and Jimmy Buffet so being the legal-aged sibling, I went out to the liquor store and bought a 2-6 of Jose Cuervo and while I'm on the topic: why is the tequila the most-freaking-expensive liquor out there???

My parents and I were going out to an Australian-Rules Football (Footy) fundraiser as my mom is the league's treasurer. Footy is a bit like rugby but very popular down under and in Vancouver, there is footy league which is one of only a handful across Canada. There are boys and girls of all ages that play, even an adult league, and they go to Australia once a year and play against some teams down there. This was a fundraiser to send the U-18 boys to Australia. It is a 19+ event and because I am on the hunt for a new boy toy, I had to get myself ready. My eyebrows looked like a flippin' forest so I went to the little East Indian place around the corner and got my eyebrows threaded and then got my my gel nails filled because they were seriously grown out. All of this was wasted as I was the youngest person at this fundraiser by at least a decade. It was mostly the parents of the kids who have played footy.

So with all of this running around and getting ready, I managed to pretty much forget about eating or drinking my water for most of the day. After my crap-tacular breakfast in the morning, I don't think that I ate again until 6pm or so when I had roast chicken, potato salad and caesar salad. It was a long span of not eating but because I was busy and not thinking about it, I wasn't hungry at all. I ate again later at the dance but I had 2 slices of pizza around 11pm, after two coolers and a screwdriver.

Sunday: Father's Day. I woke up around 8:30, thankfully hang-over free. There was a World of Warcraft thing going on online at 10am that I was getting ready for so I didn't eat breakfast until noon or so. Again, a very long time of being awake without eating and then what did I have for breakfast? Eggs benedict. Not really the epitome of healthy eating. My parents, brother and I then went down to see my Grampa and visit with him for awhile and my Nana served date squars with creamy tea. Dinner was very tasty but alright for healthy stuff. We had veggie and chicken kabobs which were great and we also had lobster for the first time ever at home! It was more entertaining to watch us try and get the meat out than anything, but of course, there was also melted butter to go with it. I had some but then I just felt sick after and I'm still not feeling all that great. I did go for a walk in the evening with the dog but on the exercise front, nothing really good since Thursday.

Today, I'm working in a Vancouver office answering phones and I won't be off until 5pm and home around 6:30pm. I would really like to go to the gym and do some cardio, so I'm going to cross my fingers and hope that I get there by 7. I'm also going to start seeing my trainer, Nathan, twice a week from now on, instead of just once a week. I can't find it in me to do weights on my own so maybe if I can start getting back in the habit of doing it, I'll be able to keep it up. My goals for this week are as follows:
  • Drink my 8 cups of water a day. (I read in the paper this morning that to find out how much water you need in a day, take your weight in pounds, divide it in half and then that number is the number of ounces your body needs of water in a day. 111 oz seems like a LOT)
  • Get back to jounalling my food. I have gotten away from the that in the past week and I really need to get that back on track.
  • Exercise. Period.
I'm not setting a goal weight lose this week because my time of the month is being a little crazy right now. All the anticiapation (bloating, soreness, crabbiness) with none of the...well you know, so I have no clue about what my weight is doing right now.

One final word, I wanted to share a blog with you all, her name is Nadeen Boman and she is a nutrition specialist from Vancouver. She works with Tommy Europe, a personal trainer and former CFL player, on two Canadian weight loss shows, Bulging Brides and The Last 10 Pounds. She hasn't updated it in a while but I just found it, and she has lots of tips and advice for men and women trying to lose weight. Check it out here.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Why I Do This Here

This will be on Jack Sh*t's blog but I thought I would post it for you guys and gals first :)

Let's get Funky!

Once Upon a Diet tagged all her blog readers in the Funky 5 MeMe (WTF is a MeMe?? Anywho, it's beside the point) and because I didn't think that you would all want to read about how tired and sore I am from seeing Nathan yesterday, this seemed fun.

Where were you 5 years ago?
  • Oh lets see, I was 14. Me and my then-boyfriend Ian had just started dating. I was just finishing grade 9 and getting ready to go off to school in another district to do a program that was not offered at any school near me, so I went off to live with my grandparents in White Rock. It was only about 15 minutes away from my house down the highway, so it wasn't too too far away. With my grandparents, I lived not too far away from where this picture was taken (see below).

Where would you like to be 5 years from now?
  • I would like to be working full time and moved out from my parents house, hopefully with someone I could see myself marrying eventually, on my way to living my own life. I would like to have graduated from university with my Bachelor of Arts degree and then move on to teaching or writing.
5 things on your to do list today
  • Clean my room. Because of my severe distaste for folding laundry my room looks like a war zone right now.
  • Eat a healthy breakfast and lunch, balanced in healthy fat, protein and carbs.
  • Go to the gym and do some cardio for an hour or so, I didn't get a great workout with Nathan yesterday because I was feeling so achy and sore when I woke up, I was out of bed for an hour or so and then I went back to bed until 1pm. My appointment was at 2 so I didn't have time to really get a good meal in because I had to walk to the gym as well and I left after having eated a banana. So, not even 20 minutes into my workout I was feeling faint and dizzy. The first time in 13 weeks of seeing Nathan that I come not having eaten properly, he gives me a hard time and I don't think that I'm going to hear the last of it LOL but I do know better than that.
  • Drink lots of water, my water intake has been failig a bit and I need to start drinking more.
  • Do the "Oh Mr.Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun, please shine down on me" dance. Today was supposed to be nice but it is totally overcast out.
5 snacks you enjoy
  • Raw, unsalted almonds.
  • Blueberries with greek style yogurt
  • Sweet and Salty Nature's Path bars
  • Popcorn
  • Hardboiled eggs
What are 5 things you would do if you were a billionaire?
  • Buy a swanky penthouse in dowtown Vancouver next door to Michael BublĂ© (who is my husband, FYI, and living next door would help him figure it out sooner). It would have a nice big stainless steel kitchen, a grand master bedroom with a large ensuite, jacuzzi tub, and flawless view of Stanley Park and Coal Harbour. I would also have an exercise room and a library/office with books everywhere. Oh yeah, and a few maids to clean the kitchen after I cook (I love cooking my own food) and to do the laundry.

  • Buy Nathan. Not even kidding, I would buy him and make him come live with me so he could cook my meals, work me out and whatnot.
  • I'd do the nice things like pay off my parents' house and give them the money they would need to retire on, as well as my best friend.
  • I would travel all over the globe, several times over, starting in Europe and working my way down to Austrailia. I would spend a lot of time travelling, I love seeing new things.
  • I would do some volunteer work, in what area, I don't know but I would want to give back and start trust funds and scholorships for students interested in teaching, health and nutrition.
Again, I'm tagging ALL OF YOU! If you have not been tagged and want to do it, go for it! All I ask is that you link back to me that I made you do it LOL. Hope everyone is having a great day and that the sun is shining for you!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Giving Back

This morning, Lisa over at "Can I buy another vowel? Going from Fat to Fit!" made my day and honored me with the Beautiful Blogger Award. The conditions for this award are to pass on the award to 7 other bloggers and to post 7 things about me that you don't know. So before I strain my head trying to figure out what to say about myself, I'm going to pass on the award:

  1. Christine @ Exquisite_Christine: I wanted to pass this on to Christine for helping to bring together all the LHA participants and for her daily affirmations.
  2. Karen @ *FiTCETERA*: I love her visual food journal, it's so colourful and she brightens my day.
  3. Chris @ A Deliberate Life: Chris has had so much success in her weight loss transformation, she is such an inspiring lady!
  4. Karen @ Muffin Fixation: I love Karen for her comments to my blog and for her lovely blog as well.
  5. Flabby McGee: This lady has been through so much, she is a great inspiration to me.
  6.  Christie @ He Took MY Last Name: In the short time I have followed her blog, I have come to love this lady. She just started on her journey a few months ago and she is making great progress.
  7. Skinny Me...Coming Soon! She is such a sweet lady, I love her blog. She is getting married in less than 2 months and she looks fabulous.
Congrats to all, it was hard choosing only 7 people. I follow so many blogs and I love feeling that I'm getting to know so many people. Now to let you all get to know me a little better:

  1. I love the girlie shows that are on Slice and TLC like the wedding shows (LOVE wedding shows), the baby shows, the cake shows, all of it. It's my guilty pleasure.
  2. I hate folding clothes. I will wash the laundry but when it comes to folding it, I would rather dump in on my bed and move it back and forth from the floor so I can sleep at night to the point that I have another full load of laundry to do before I even consider putting it away.
  3. I can actually sing pretty well but I never had the guts to try out for Canadian Idol and now I regret it because the show has been put on hiatus. 
  4. I love the sunshine and the heat. In the summer, I'll often hang out on my back deck all day just reading and listening to music.
  5. I don't like going to the movies. I find the theaters too cold and busy, it's way overpriced and I just couldn't be bothered. If it a movie that I am really looking forward to and have heard about a lot, if it is based on a book that I have read or something, I'll go out with my friends, but just to go out and see a movie that just came out for the sake of seeing it, I have no patience for that.
  6. I worked at Tim Horton's for about a year and half when I was 15 and everyone I talked to that worked there said that after a month or two, you'll get tired of the doughnuts. I didn't LOL. I didn't gain a lot of weight, I lost weight at first because of being on my feet and walking around for 7 and 8 hours but then I started gaining weight again but I've been gaining weight more or less consistently for my whole life. I was promoted to supervisor but the manager had an issue with me personally and I was fired for stupid things and then a few months later, another girl who was promoted at the same time was fired for stealing $1000+ from the store. This was a girl that the manager LOVED. I tried not to rub it in her face that she got rid of a good employee for nothing.
  7. I want a Smartcar. That is my dream car and hopefully when I get a full time job, I'll be able to get one!
That list was seriously hard to come up with! I want to thank Lisa again and wish everyone the best week!

Awards and Weigh Ins and Facebook, OH MY!

Oh em GEE! I have so much stuff to talk about in this post I had to take notes to remember it all, but even then, I think that I forgot something.

First off, today is My Long Hot Active Summer Challenge weigh in day. Here are the numbers:

Last week: 223.5 lbs
This week: 222.8 lbs
Difference: -0.7 lbs
Minutes of activity: 395 mins (6 hours and 35 mins)

Not as much activity as I would have liked but I just wasn't feeling into it this week at the gym and all things considered, I'm happy that I lost weight this week. I didn't make my original goal of getting down to 220 this week to score my first reward (Biggest Loser Cookbook), but I reached my amended goal of weighing less than I did last week! I thought that I would be losing weight faster than I am. Looking around the blogs, I see lots of people dropping more weight per week while working out (as far as I can tell from their descriptions) less. Granted, my eating this week wasn't perfect, but even on my best eating weeks I see little gratification on the scale and in my clothes. I've been working hard but it's proving to be very difficult for me to lose weight. Being over 220 lbs and almost 20 years old, I have to lose weight eventually with all the exercise and healthy eating. I don't really think that it would possible for me to stay at this weight while working towards being healthy. I know that the scale only tells part of the story but I can only be a certain degree of healthy at 220 lbs. I just have to remember to be patient, I'm not going to give up.

Secondly, I got my very first award thanks to Lisa, a wonderful lady and a fellow LHA challenge participant, @ "Can I buy another vowel? Going from Fat to Fit!" I'm very pleased to be recieving this award and I would love to thank all the little people (read: future skinnies) for reading my blog. When I first started blogging and saw that I had followers, I was dumbfounded that people were actually reading what I wrote and when I started getting comments, I was overjoyed. It makes my day that someone took the time to comment on something that I wrote, it means the world to me! The conditions for this award are as follows:

  • Pass the award on to 7 other beautiful bloggers
  • Reveal 7 things about myself that I have not previously mentioned
Those conditions will be met in another post, hopefully later tonight, so stayed tuned for that!

Thirdly, I started a Facebook page for my blog, [238] and Shrinking. I was going to link it to my personal Facebook page but as a "public figure" page I can link it to my Twitter account, @MiaY238, and update both of my statuses at the same time. Check it out, the badge is on the right hand side of my posts.

Plan for the day:
  • Eat well
  • Go see Nathan at 2pm, I saw him yesterday briefly and said "Hi" and he complained about being sore from his chest work out (hold on while I pry my mind out of the gutter concerning Nathan's chest). I had no sympathy for him and said "Oh, you poor thing". He smiled and said "Just wait, I'm going to make you cry tomorrow" to which I replied "Good, I look forward to it."
  • Post my award recipient blog
  • Cross my fingers and hope for a call that tells me I got a job (I rocked both of my job interviews yesterday. I'm hoping for one more than the other; even though I would make less money, it would something I enjoy more and less stressful)
Good luck to everyone weighing in or working out today!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Obese is a four letter word...really, it is.

I am obese.

My BMI is 38.4 and that classifies me as mobidly obese by some standards or class two obesity.

I've improved. When I started this blog, my BMI was 40.9. I was super obese. I didn't even know that that was a term people used. Super obese makes it sound like a pseudo crime fighter that sits on its foes with jelly doughnuts in hand, waiting for the cops to show up.

I don't even get to be classified as overweight until I reach 174 lbs and my BMI will measure 29.9
I need to lose 50 lbs before I can say that I am overweight. Little depressing much?

I don't think that I have ever admitted to being obese. If I had to talk about it, I would always say that I was overweight, but I said it for the first time in my last blog post. What is even more of a wake up call is that I realized it was the first time too, immediately after I did it. I don't even like the sound of the word on my tongue. The wide Ob- makes the word all soft and round. The -ese feels greasy and slippery. Even in the social conscious, obesity is a dirty word, but it is formal at the same time. We don't say obese is day to day conversation. It is literally the elephant in the room, but I'm going to come right out and say it: I am obese.

I place a lot of significance in the BMI scale because I am not a body builder, but I am aware that it is not a good scale for everyone to use. I am 5'4 with an average bone structure.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Blaaaaaaaah...I don't have another way to title this post

There is a very good chance I won't be meeting my weigh in goal on Wednesday. Looking back through my records (men and boys, avert your eyes), it is that time of the month again. And because of that, it has me in a kind of emotional rut. I'm eating crap way too late but I can't stop myself because I'm going carb crazy (I know, it's a lame excuse). I feel like it's a vicious cycle: I'm bloated because I my period is coming, I'm eating crappy because I'm emotional because of my period and because I'm eating crappy, I'm bloated. BAHH! All of this considered, I really don't think that I'm going to lose 3.5 lbs this week unless there is some kind of divine intervention.

In other news, I bought some new protein powder. It is Strawberry Banana flavour by Whey Gourmet. I went and did some cardio work today at the gym and when I got home I tried it out, but at first I was a little bit hesitant. I've never really seen a strawberry banana flavour before and I knew that it would either be really really good, or really terrible. And it was pretty good. There is a bit of a funny aftertaste to it, like a sweetener kind of taste and normally artificial sweeteners bother me and give me a headache but so far, nothing.

I have two job interviews tomorrow and I'm really excited about them. I really need a full time job. And soon. I really hope that I don't ramble in the interviews and that all goes well.

Update to this post (06/15/10)

I am changing my goal for this week. I don't know what I weigh right now but I know that I am not going to make it to 220.0 this week because of the aformentioned reasons. My goal for this week is to weigh less than I did last week and pull off a third straight week as a loss. Even if it is only 0.1 less, putting me at 223.4, I will be happy with that. I'm going to be really careful with my eating for the rest of the day today and see if I can drop a bit. My pants still fit; this is a good sign that maybe the crummy feeling is just psychological/emotional and maybe I haven't gained 10 lbs (like I feel I have)...

It just hit me that weigh in day is tomorrow...yikes. Let's wait and see how it goes. (I spelt it "weight" at first and had to look at it for a while to remember how to spelt the right "wait" LOL, can you tell what is on my mind?)

It's all about Perception

I was reading a few blogs this morning and the comments and there was a post from Kenz at All the Weigh a couple days ago and she was talking about how her good friend, who is a doctor, discourages her from weighing in every week. She, Kenz, recognizes that the number the scale reads is only one piece of the weight loss puzzle and I'm really happy that she sees that. Because I work at Curves, I see lots of women in varying stages of their weight loss goals and some of them see no change on the scale but they lose A LOT of inches all over (one lady has gained half a pound but lost 21 inches over the last 2 years!). Some only lose weight but minimal inches. Your weight, your inches lost, your body fat percentage, your cholesterol, your blood pressure, these are all indicators of your health and weight loss journey and one does not speak for all of them. So first, I want to send Kenz my best wishes in her heathy journey for being able to see that the scale is not the be-all-to-end-all. Second, what I really wanted to talk about concerning this post was something I read in the comments.

Someone was saying how she doesn't weigh herself too often because she is heavier than she looks, and like Kenz, sees that weight is only part of the puzzle. I struggled with this my whole life because I never really paid much attention to what I weighed. I looked in the mirror and saw that I was overweight obese but I could change the angle or only really look at certain parts of my body and I didn't look that bad. Sure, I was the biggest girl in my class in elementary school, but by how much really? 10, 20 pounds? I could lie to myself and say that I carried it well, but I was very aware that I was fat because of the things people said.

When I was younger, maybe 6 years old or so, whenever me and my mom went shopping for new clothes and I bought jeans, she would do the mom thing and pull the waist band to make sure it wasn't too tight and she would say "Good, there is room to grow". I understand her rationale because what parent wants to keep buying clothes for her kids when they grow out of them in a few months? I remember when I was about 11-12 and I was trying on jeans and I did the same thing, but when I said the same thing she had said countless times over, her response was "You don't really want to keep growing any more". I wasn't hurt, I was just confused. Wasn't I still a growing girl? Did this mean I wasn't going to get any taller or that I was going to lose weight?

I took some pictures of myself the other day to post in my 1000 Words in Pictures section (currently under development). I got myself all pretty, doing my hair and make-up and what not and took some profile shots and then I got the mini camera stand out so I could take some full body shots. I thought that I looked pretty good that day but when I looked at the pictures on my computer all I saw was my stomach sticking out in ways that I'm sure I've never seen, my hips looking like a tire around my body and lots of double chin. It effectively zapped my self confidence for the day and I never posted the pictures. It was shocking to see the difference in the pictures and what I see in the mirror. I thought that I was becoming more aware of my body but now I wonder if I was only deluding myself further.

Maybe one day I'll get around to posting the pictures I took, when I weigh 25 lbs less or so. I'll be able to say that those are pictures of the girl I was and this is the girl I am now, but right now I'd rather think of myself as the girl I see in the mirror.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Another Thursday Night

Overall I had a good day today. My eating was okay today and for the first time EVER, I repeat, EVER, I worked out the day after I saw Nathan. Normally, I'm way too sore to even think about going to the gym the day after I work out with Nathan Nathan makes me do inhuman things that my body is hardly able to perform over the span of an hour. I don't know why but my body wasn't all that sore, I worked hard yesterday. After we finished, I looked as if I could have just jumped in a pool. Regardless, I went to the gym today and did a brisk walk on the treadmill for 50 minutes. I tried to do running intervals but I think that I strained my shin muscles on Tuesday or I got shin splints, either way, it made running really difficult, so I walked and changed the incline to get different intervals of cardio training. Then after I wasn't ready to stop working out yet so I did the elliptical for 30 mins.

I really need to get back in the habit of doing my weight routine, and tomorrow (I'm sending out positive energy, I'm declaring my intention to the world, does that count for something?) I am going to do it, as well as some cardio work. I really could do cardio everyday, I hate doing weights because it's so dull on my own. No one to talk to and I can't even listen to my music! But at least I'm pretty sure that it won't kill me.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

LHA Week 5 Weigh In

Last week: 224.6 lbs
This week: 223.5 lbs
Difference: -1.1 lbs
Exercise Minutes: 555 minutes (9 hours and 15 minutes)

Not too shabby. I didn't meet my goal of losing 2.3 lbs this week, but the real goal was getting to 220.0 next week, and that is not off the table just yet. It will be hard to knock off 3.5 lbs in a week, but some people have done it, even well into their weight loss journey. If I try my hardest and I stay on top of my eating and work out hard, I won't be disappointed in myself, know that I gave it my all. Even if I don't make it next week, there is the week after it.

Summer Slimmin' Challenge Update: I'm getting better about drinking more water. My problem is not that I drink a lot of sodas and fruit juices, but that I don't drink enough fluids. When I'm exercising, I drink about 700mL, which likely equates to around 23-24oz but when I'm not exercising, it is hard for me to remember to get my fluids in. I've been keeping my water bottle beside me all the time and it is really helping!

Thank you all for your comments and concern from my anxiety post the other day. Normally, I don't suffer from anxiety, this is very new to me. The anxiety is a little less than what it was over the weekend and Monday, but I still have the stomach sick, nervous feeling, but I'm not constantly stressed and psyching myself out that I've forgotten something important. I think that today it's be caused by the fact that I'm going to see Nathan in an hour or so, and I kinda have a big crush on him...

Yesterday was a good, social day for me. In the morning, I went to the gym and did 50 mins of running intervals (4 mins @ 3 mph, 1 min @ 5.5 mph, 4 mins @ 3 mph, 1 min @ 6 mph, rinse and repeat) and 30 mins on the elliptical. Bad news: I think that I strained/pulled the muscle on the front of my shin. It made running very difficult and painful, which was why I switched to the elliptical and I wasn't ready to quit yet.

A friend and I went to a free rugby skills clinic last night out in South Surrey and it was hard work! Lots of running and passing drills but it was really great meeting some new ladies. There is another clinic on Thursday night which we are going to again. Because it was Tuesday, that meant that the season finale of Glee was on! After the clinic, we went over to another friend's house and watched the show together with about 8 or 10 of us (I'm going to start going through Glee withdrawal pretty soon, just to warn you all). After the show, a bunch of us decided that we didn't really want to go our separate way yet and we drove down to the beach about 20 minutes away, but when we got there it really started raining so we went to a Tim Horton's and hung out until about midnight. I went to Starbucks instead, because I had a gift card, and got a grande non-fat caramel macchiato. Very yummy! It was nice seeing a bunch of my friends again and gossiping about other people that we knew from high school, general association, etc.

Hope you're all having a great day so far. I'm headed out to the gym to see Nathan and I'll post a recap later! Good luck to everyone weighing in today!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Ants-ies in the Pants-ies

No, I'm not going to break out into dance. I've been feeling really anxious for some reason for the last few days, bordering on stomach sick anxious. I feel like I'm going to forget to do something important or I'm going to think that tomorrow is really another day and I'm going to sleep in and miss work. It has me really stressed out but I don't really understand why I'm feeling this way. I think that, in part at least, it's this new job. I'm working in Vancouver as a receptionist but the place that I'm working for doesn't get a lot of calls. The bosses intimidate me a little, because this is my first "grown-up job" and I feel guilty that I don't do anything other than answer the phone, which hardly rings. Mostly, I just sit at her desk reading a book or on the computer reading your lovely blogs. I'm doing this as a favour for one of the ladies that works out at Curves, my other job, and who is a friend of my mother's. She wanted to go down to 4 days a week during the summer so she asked me to come in and do the phones for her on Mondays, but she is also a bookkeeper so she has other stuff to be doing during the day as well.

I'm not understanding where it is all coming from, but it has certainly affected me in my eating and exericise. I was out to the gym yesterday and I am planning on going today after work, but my eating has been suffering. Friday night I ate a whole bag of chips to myself. Last night I binged on a bunch of cheesies. I don't know what my weight is at right now, I haven't even bothered to check.

I think that the single life is getting to me. I don't really have a lot of friends and I don't see the ones I do have very often because they are pretty busy. I need to get in touch with more people, all I've really done in the past few days can be summed up in four little words: Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I've been huddled on my bed watching my DVDs of seasons 1-4, out of 7 seasons. I love this show, but if I think about my behaviour critically, it paints a sad picture. Young girl, sitting alone in the dark, watching a fictional heroine slay monsters, eating a bag of chips, wishing she had a boyfriend.

Enough of the "woe is me" fest. Tonight I am going to the gym to get a work out in and tomorrow night there is a rugby skills seminar in Surrey that me and friend are going to. Rugby could be really fun to get into, I think that I may have a thing for rough sports (see the roller derby post). As long as it gets me off my ass and into a smaller pair of shorts, I'm okay with it!

PS: I keep forgetting to tell you all that I'm on Twitter now! No promises for fantastical stuff as I'm still trying to sort it out, but check it out, my username is MiaY238!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

A Challenging Summer

Just to add something else to my summer, I thought that I would take part in another challenge. Starting on Sunday, there are a variety of different categories that you can take part in for this challenge, or you can even make your own goals. There are a number of different badges for your blog and not too many restrictions for the challenge, only the standard ones of posting the info on your blog and checking in once a week. If you have a goal in mind that you want to accomplish, head on over and check it out.

Because I'm already doing  my Long Hot Active Summer Challenge, in which I am already tracking my weight loss and exercise numbers, I'm going to use this challenge to do something else. I'm making a goal to to drink my 8 cups of water per day, as I struggle with that and if this summer turns out to be a hot one (cross my fingers) I'm going to need to stay hydrated and with any luck, the habit will stick with me!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Burn Baby, Burn!!!

It was a BEAUTIFUL day in Vancouver today. The sun was out and shining so I took full advantage and hung out my back deck with a book, and that (see above) is what happened. I will always remember to wear sunscreen, lest this happen again. Forgetting isn't really an apt description of what happened today. A better word is neglect. I neglected to wear sunscreen. Even my legs were burnt and my legs never burn! I got a bit of heat stroke as well which I didn't notice until I got to work. I was sitting at the front desk and I couldn't figure out why I was dizzy! I was drinking lots of water throughout the day but I guess that it was just not enough. Monster burn aside, my legs are super sore from working out with Nathan yesterday so today was a rest day. Tomorrow, I'm going to head back to Fitness World and do some cardio because I don't think that my skin is going to like doing weights, being burn to a crisp and all that. 

Thursday's Food Journal: (as of 9:30pm)

  • 3 eggs w/ 1/2 tomato, 1/4 c cottage cheese

  • 2 slices m/g toast

  • 1 cup blueberries

  • Medium Ice Capp made with 1% chocolate milk (not cream)

  • Spinach salad w/ 1 tbsp olive oil, 1 can tuna, strawberries, 1/4 c avocado, 1/2 tomato

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Wednesday Recap

I had a pretty good day and gradually, the weather started agreeing with me. The sun came out for a while in the afternoon but it didn't last too long. I had a good work out with Nathan today. We did some boxing today and that was a lot of fun but we didn't get as much cardio stuff done because I weighed in there and he also looked at my food journal (which has greatly improved from the last time he looked at it), so really I only worked out for  about 45 minutes instead of the full hour.

After the gym, I got on the bus and went downtown into Vancouver and got some new piercings! I love them, but it's a little tender right now.

The two black jewels on the bottom are one piercing that is called a surface piercing, as there is a bar that runs underneath the surface of the skin. The clear stud on top is called a microdermal and it is anchored independently, how, I am not entirely sure but it stays there! (LOL)

Food Journal for Wednesday, June 2nd

  • 1 cup Kashi Crunch
  • 3/4 cup skim milk
  • 1 cup blueberries
  • Ensure meal replacement/supplement
  • 1.5 cup Corn chowder
  • 1 oz gouda cheese
  • 2 slices multigrain bread
  • 2 glasses tea with milk and sugar

LHA Week 4 Check In!

I have a feeling that today is going to be a good day. Here are my numbers:

Last week: 226.7 lbs
This week: 224.6 lbs
Difference: -2.1lbs
Exercise Minutes: 315 mins (5 hours 15 minutes)

Another milestone number for me is my body fat percentage. I am under 40% now, 39.9% to be exact according to my scale, which makes my body fat mass 89.7 lbs. I started at 44.0% in January so I'm really happy to be seeing that number go down.

I set some goals for myself late last week and lets take a peek at those:

Here are my goals:

Next week:
  • I want to lose at least ONE pound by Wednesday to put myself at <225.7 lbs for the LHA weigh in
For the 16th of June: (3 weigh ins away)
  • I will weigh 220.0 lbs
  • I will work out at least 5 days a week for 1.5-2 hours
  • I will focus on my food intake and eat healthy foods that fuel my body to do what it needs to do.
  • I will remember to celebrate the small victories and remember the improvements I've made to my overall health.
I met a goal this week! I lost over a pound for the weigh in today, I shattered it with 2.1 lbs lost! I still have more goals coming up for the next two weeks and if I want to meet my weight loss goal I have to lose 4.6 lbs over the next two weeks, or 2.3 lbs each week. It's going to be a hard goal to meet, but I'm going to try as hard as I can to make it happen to recieve first reward for getting to 220.0 lbs, a Biggest Loser Cookbook. Today, I'm going to see my trainer, Nathan, and then going downtown to get a couple piercings done! Check out the post I wrote at midnight for full details on that again. I hope everyone has a good weigh in today, I was around a few blogs this morning and some of my American friends have pulled out some great numbers, even considering they just had their Memorial Day weekend! Good luck and I wish you all the drive and perseverance to reach your goals for next week!

Much love~  

Daily Recap, Food Journal and Tomorrow's Plan

Getting ready for the LHA weigh in tomorrow morning. I had a peek at my weight a few minutes ago and I'm not giving away any spoilers just yet! You'll all just have to be patient until the morning. I've gotten out of the habit of posting my food journal at the end of the day so that is going to get going again. Food for me today wasn't great just because I didn't really eat enough and I'm starting to get hungry at 11:50pm but it's too late to eat now. I did make it out to the gym this afternoon and I was very happy with myself. I managed to pull 125 minutes of activity out of myself and dump it on the gym floor. I spend 65 minutes on the treadmill doing interval running (2.8/5.0 mph in intervals of 4 mins walking, 1:30 running), 40 minutes on the elliptical and 20 mins walking to the bank and then home from the gym. Yeah, I had to walk home from the gym.

Because I am not planning on working out between now and 5 minutes from now, I can tell you all that I clocked 315 minutes of activity this week. I am a little disappointed with that because I didn't work out Saturday through Monday because of lack of motivation. If I ever complain about exercise, someone please remind me of how good I feel after I work out! It was nice getting out of the house today and getting stuff done. I liked sweating and feeling my heartbeat pump hard in my chest. I saw my trainer, Nathan, briefly today; when I first got to the gym he was with a client and then he started his own work out so I didn't get to talk to him too much but we did catch sight of each other as I was cleaning my equipment and getting ready to go and we waved at each other. I saw him look at a few times while I was running but I tried not too look back when he was looking, playing hard to get and all that. And it's not very suave if I get distracted and fall off the treadmill.

The plan for tomorrow is a good one. I'm going to see Nathan at 1pm for a work-out and then I'm going to shower at the gym and head into downtown Vancouver because my favorite place of all time,Adrenaline Tattoo and Piercing, is having an anniversary sale to commemorate 1 year of being at their new location. They are offering piercings at 2 for 1 tomorrow only so I'm going to get a free piercing tomorrow, saving myself around $80. Currently, I have 15 piercings (my left ear: daithe bridge, tragus, 4 ear lobes; my right ear: 3 ear lobes, industrial, rook, snug; lip; nose; belly button) down from my all-time high of 18 at the same time (eyebrow, conch [which only sounds dirty, its on the ear], 1 more on left ear lobe). Tomorrow, I'm going to get my tongue web (which is the little flap of tissue under your tongue that holds it to the bottom of your mouth) and my nape (back of neck) done and I have been looking forward to getting my neck done for a long time! I know, I'm really strange.

Food Journal for June 1st 2010
  • 2 slices whole wheat bread with 1 tbsp peanut butter
  • Ensure meal replacement/supplement
  • 1.5 c corn chowder
  • Spinach salad with a tomato and 1/2c blueberries, 2 tbsp greek dressing
  • tea with milk (around a 1/4 c) and sugar (2 tsp)
Yup, thats it. I just wasn't hungry today.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

How Rewarding

Before I really get in to this post, can I just say, "Oh my mother freaking GOSH! It's June already!" I don't even know where the time went. It feels like I just started this weight loss thing but it's been 6 months! Time to start getting those shorts (gulp), tank tops (gasp) and swimsuits (I think a part of me just died there) ready for some sun exposure. I'm not really ready for all of that yet. Hopefully I have another week or two left before the sun starts shining. I can't believe I just wished for two more weeks of rain and cloudy weather, but there you have it!

I have definitely let myself slack off as of late in regards to my exercise attempts. Normally, I really like exercise. I love the feeling that I have accomplished something and that I was productive. Lately, I've felt really tired and I just want to lay in bed and watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Sunday night, someone in my house (I have a feeling it was my Dad) decided that because we haven't had Chinese food in a long time we were going to order in dinner. I'm sure lots of you know what is in American-style** Chinese food, or maybe it would be more apt to say that many of us DON'T know what is in Chinese food (My mom and I sat and looked a this one vegetable that was in with our food and had the shape of a sliced tomato with funny holes and it was white with the texture of a water chestnut, but way too big). A lot of restaurants use MSG in their cooking and it often has a lot of sodium and oil. Unfortunately, my better judgement didn't speak up louder and I ate that for dinner. What really sucked about it was that it wasn't even very good. We ordered from somewhere different this last time and I didn't care for it at all. Now, I can't shake this tired and bloated feeling I've had since then. Before I started eating better, I wouldn't have even noticed that I felt this way because I way so out of touch with my body and I was always tired. I know that eating food that isn't good for does this to me, but I ate it anyways. I made my choices and no one is perfect 100% of the time. Eventually, I'm going to be in situations that I can't control and I have to learn how to deal with them accordingly. I just wish that the Chinese food tasted better, then this may have been a better trade.

**(I say American style because I've been to China and have eaten Chinese food exclusively for 2 weeks straight. I never ate the kind of food that they serve here in China, although I also recognize that there are different regions that serve up varying styles of cuisine and I travelled mostly on the western coast region. Regardless, the two are very different.)**

The rewarding part of this post, as per the title, was not meant to be ironic as I told you all about the Chinese food. I did have another purpose for this post but when I start writing, I tend to break off into tangents. Anyways, back on track to what I wanted to talk about. Because I had recently set some goals for myself I thought that it would only be fitting that I set some rewards for myself as well, some long term, others hopefully a little more short term. These rewards are for when I hit a certain weight and total weight loss.

*220 lbs, -18 lbs lost*
Biggest Loser Cookbook

I made this my first reward because it would really help me get further and (cross my fingers) it should be coming up pretty soon

*198 lbs, -40 lbs lost*
New Jeans

Onderland! I picked 198 instead of 199 because it would make for an even 40 lbs loss and it puts me a bit more solidly into the 190's. By then I'm going to need a new pair of jeans but I'm going to get nice jeans. Not Wal-Mart jeans. Nice jeans that I can buy in a normal store.

*188 lbs, -50 lbs lost*
A Ring

When I was doing Weight Watchers and attending meetings, our group leader had a ring that she bought for herself when she had lost so much weight. And I love shiny things. 50 lbs will be a big milestone for me and hopefully I will be able to celebrate by getting a new ring to remind myself of what I can accomplish.

*175 lbs, -63 lbs lost*
A New Outfit

Something pretty.

*160 lbs, -78 lbs lost*

Or stilletto boots, depending on the season.

*150 lbs, -88lbs*

I've never had a massage before and maybe by the time I get to 150 lbs, I'll have had one. It sounds like a nice realzing reward all the same.

*138 lbs, -100 lbs lost*
Butterfly Tattoo

I love girly tattoos and what better (or more cliché) than a butterfly tattoo when I lose 100 lbs? I would love it to go on my outer thigh, about 3/4 of the way up.

*130 lbs, -108 lbs lost, Goal Weight!*
New Wardrobe

I'm going to need a whole new wardrobe by this time and what better way to celebrate than to get rid of my fat clothes and get skinny clothes?

What are your goals and rewards? Do you have any timeline associated with them or they will happen when they happen? I hope that everyone is having a great Tuesday and now all this talk of rewards has me a little psyched! I'm going to the gym!