I was watching week 17 of The Biggest Loser today on the computer because I missed it on Tuesday. They were down to the final 5 contestants and their challenge involved them carrying the weight that they had lost over the 16 previous weeks and hauling it up mounds of sand. Some of them had to move 100+ pounds around they got stuck, sinking further into the sand as they tried to climb this big hill. This was oddly familiar to me as I had just written a blog post about a 10 lbs medicine ball and hauling that around in my work out. Granted, they were moving 10 times more weight than I was, but the concept is the same. What really hit me about this episode was that each participant watched a short movie about their time on the ranch with either Bob or Jillian. While watching Ashley's footage, it flashed back to a moment in either week 1 or week 2 when she and her mother, Sherry, were talking about the Biggest Loser gym:
Ashley: What if I go in there, and I can't do it?
Sherry: But what if you go in there, and you can?
I was just floored. I kind of remember her saying this before, but it really hit me more this time around. I cry a lot when I watch Biggest Loser because it hits so close to home and I develop feelings for each of the contestants (some more than others). I love Ashley, and now with Sunshine out of the final 4, I really want her to win it. Even if she doesn't, she's going to look fantastic! She already does.
So, what if I go full steam ahead and I can do it? I haven't really completed any goal of mine in my life. Not when it has come to my health and fitness. I think that that is why I am reluctant to set goals for myself, because I'm not sure that I can make them. If I make a goal for my weight loss, there is the possibility that I will fail at it. I'm more comfortable just doing it. Not telling myself that I have to lose 20 lbs by the end of the month, but knowing that I will get there eventually.
Nathan says that I have to start changing my lifestyle: eating healthier, committing to coming in to the gym 3 or 4 times a week, and then later I can work on setting weight loss goals for myself. That makes sense. I have to build the foundation of my "pyramid", so to speak, before I can climb it. But baby, when I'm climbing, look out!