This week's weight: 227.3 (+0.1)
Minutes of activity: 305 minutes
I'm not surprised. With my binge last week and not really working out like I should be, I knew that I was not going to lose any weight. And I'm okay with that. It comes from realizing that in order to get to where I want to be, I'm going to have to work for it. And I'm going to have to work hard. I still think that I'm a little jaded in the sense that I'm waiting to wake up one day and just be magically skinny, or because I used to spend money on "fat flush pills" and hang out at the gym (not working out, just being there) that I would lose weight. I've waited for that day to come for years. I'm working on breaking 20 years of bad habits that are so ingrained and comfortable. It's going to be slow work.
In other news, I worked out with Nathan today. I was up way too late last night (4 am) with my friend, Kyle, watching Moulin Rouge because I was depressed about being fat and single so he came over to keep me company and it really hindered my work out. I've been stressed about things with my ex and school, so I was just not feeling into exercise. We had to end early because I just couldn't do it. My legs were shaking and they would not hold me up. One of the exercises I did today, though, is called a dip and twist or something like that. How it works is I hold a medicine ball in my hands and bend over, touching the ball to the ground in front of my left toe (legs are slightly more than shoulder width apart) and then pulling the ball back up to my chest while twisting to my right and then pressing the ball into the air over my right shoulder, so the ball is moving diagonally across my body.
I may not have lost a lot of weight, but I have lost inches and I'm becoming stronger. When I started working out with Nathan, it was hard to do a plank for 20 seconds, it was torture. Today I managed to get up to 40 seconds! I'm becoming healthier, regardless of what the scale says, but hopefully one day the scale will show me a number that represents all the hard work that I've done and all the work that is yet to come!