Monday, May 31, 2010

10 Things You Didn't Know About Me

1. I’m a super nerd. Every summer I read the Harry Potter series again for the billionth time. And the Twilight series. Oh yeah, and I play World of Warcraft.

2. I have 5 big squishy pillows on my bed but I only use one of them, and it’s always the same one, but I would hate to get rid of the other 4.

3. I kill potted plants. Not that I do it on purpose, I love having them in my room, they just don’t stay alive for too long. I think that it has something to do with the fact that I forget to water them.

4. When I was little, I loved witchcraft and the fantastical. I even had an Ouija board and I learned how to read Tarot cards. I wanted to be something special and a little more than ordinary, in my own way. I still wish that magic were real, hence my love for Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Charmed.

5. I love both the names Isabelle and Wyatt...and then my cousin gave those names to 2 or her children. Not that she knew that I wanted those names for my kids (should I ever have any) or even that I see her or her kids too often, but I’m undecided if I still want to name my kids that because there aren’t really two people in my family with the same names, let alone two sets of siblings.

6. I have a younger brother who is pretty much the only person in my immediate family that has not struggled with his weight at one point or another in his life. He is actually in really good shape. Most people in high school didn’t even know that we were related, we didn’t have an unusual last name to give it away. He is the polar opposite of me. Preppy, popular and all those clichés. If it couldn't fit any better, his girlfriends have all been tall, skinny, blondes.

7. I’ve always thought that my type of guy was the kind of guy who is shy, dark haired, musical, intelligent, and a bit of a rebel. I’ve been with two guys (technically 3, but I don’t count one of them but that is a whole other story) and both of them were blondes, not musical, amd not very intelligent.

8. I have a thing for pretty smelling hand and body creams...and then I never use them. I probably have a dozen or so that are scattered throughout my room and bathroom but I may have used each one of them once, maybe twice.

9. I’m addicted to music. I have a tattoo on my shoulder with music notes. I love all different kinds of music, pretty much anything that has a good rhythm to it, except for rap but even then there are distinctions between different kinds of rap, some that I actually like and some that I can’t even listen to. I’m mainly into modern rock, some mild punk rock and top 40 dance/pop. I love dancing too.

10. I check out girls more than I check out guys. It’s a self-esteem thing, but I can’t help but compare myself to other girls that I see and judge how I compare to them.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

In the Shallow End of the Pool

In keeping with this theme of getting back on the bandwagon, I wanted to discuss something I haven’t really mentioned before in previous posts. I think that talking about it now of all times could really help me get back in tune with my goals and what it is I want to accomplish. The big question that remains is “Why?”

Why do I want to shape up?

I wish I could be more articulate about this or that my reasoning was a bit more profound but none the less, I want to be HAWT. I want to be smokin’ hot. I want random guys to actually pay attention to me when I’m out with my girls, at a coffee shop, out in public, instead of the alternative of pretending that I am invisible or don’t exist. Anything. I know that it’s shallow and vain, but that is practically the biggest motivating factor. I want collar bones, I have a thing for collar bones and necks. I’ve never had a nice slender, well defined neck and shoulders, it’s always been hidden by a layer of cushion. I want to be able to goof off with my friends and not freak out or feel hindered because I have to pause and pull up my pants because my gut has pushed them down. I want to be able to shop for clothes that I like without having to find the biggest size in the store and then pray that they fit up over my thighs. I want to be able to run without my butt cheeks bouncing up and down (it’s very distracting and embarrassing). I don’t want my thighs to feel as if they are fighting their way past each other when I walk, I want them to slide comfortably past each other, there doesn’t have to be a gap between them (even though it would be nice), I just want to feel comfortable with my thighs. I want to wear skinny jeans and stilettos. Sue me, but I want to be a little bit trampy without looking sloppy and trashy.

I know that most of this sounds really vain, but hey, I’m an almost-20-year-old that is in no mood to settle down and wait to have a couple kids. I’m newly single and I want to have a good time but all my life I’ve felt like my weight has been holding me back. I’ve always been shy because I’ve been conditioned that no one ever really wanted to pay attention to me so I may as well blend into the background and not draw attention to myself. I want to break out of this.

And there you have it. Of course, there are other things like my health and general wellness, and don’t get me wrong those things are important as well. As much as I would rather think about those as main motivating factors, I can’t help that it’s just not the case.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Did the Bandwagon Leave Without Me?

Here is what is going on:
  • I don't really know how I'm feeling this week about anything, weight loss related or otherwise. 
  • I feel so tired. 
  • I haven't even really had it in me to blog because I don't even know what to say. 
  • I need to get myself re-focused.
  • I need a plan.
  • I want to feel better about myself.
  • I want to get these issues that are holding me back sorted out.
I'm going to set some goals for myself, just to try it out. FYI, I'm not crazy about setting goals. I don't find that setting goals for myself really helps me because if I don't meet it, I'm only letting myself down and I can live with that. I know that I should be the most important person and that letting myself down should be a bigger deal, but it's just not. But, I'm going to try it out and see how it goes. I need to make myself a priority and make getting into shape the most important thing for me right now.

Here are my goals:
  • Next week: I want to lose at least ONE pound by Wednesday to put myself at <225.7 lbs for the LHA weigh in
  • For the 16th of June: (3 weigh ins away)
    • I will weigh 220.0 lbs
    • I will work out at least 5 days a week for 1.5-2 hours
    • I will focus on my food intake and eat healthy foods that fuel my body to do what it needs to do.
    • I will remember to celebrate the small victories and remember the improvements I've made to my overall health.
I think that I can do this.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

LHA Weigh In Week 3

Last week's weight: 226.5 lbs
This week's weight: 226.7 lbs
Difference: +0.2 lbs
Minutes of Exercise: 320 mins (5 hours 20 mins)

I knew that it was going to be difficult with the family this weekend because all we do when we visit is eat, drink alcohol and sit around the campfire (I know, it's torture!). I really had wanted to go for a run on Saturday morning to move around a bit but I managed to get myself sick again so going for a run wasn't in the cards. But I did dance a lot at the wedding. I don't really even know what to make of this. I've been feeling bloated lately but I'm not really sure why and when I weighed myself after getting home from my cousin's wedding Sunday night and I weighed the end of the day. At the end of the day after having sat in the car on a 7 hour drive home. Where did that 225 go in two days?

I'm getting frustrated in general that I'm not losing more weight. I've been doing this for weeks and I have little to show for my efforts. I don't binge and pig out whenever I get the chance. I eat healthy food. I exercise. I exercise so hard when I go I am dripping with sweat I look as if I could have dumped a bucket of water on my head. Sure, I'm losing inches, but I can only lose so many while staying the same weight. I guess all I can do now is keep trying.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I'm Baaaaack!

I'm back from my long weekend away with my family. I have so many cousins and such a big family because on that side of the family my great-grandparents had like 8 kids, and then most of those kids had 3-5 kids, and now the third generation is having kids.I had such a great time at my cousin's wedding, it was just what I needed. She got married Saturday night and we were worried because the weather was kind of iffy, but at least it was an indoor wedding. Another one of my cousins who is my age decided that we, along with a few of my other cousins that are around our age, needed to do some tequila shots. My face went numb after a while of this but I had a great time dancing with everyone. I got way too drunk but that is what my family does at weddings. We drink and then dance until 3 in the morning.

Most of my family at the wedding was staying at my aunt and uncle's house because the wedding was held in a (very) small town 7 hours away from Vancouver and they live in this town a short walk away from where the wedding was actually being held. It was really funny as we were all getting ready for the ceremony because I saw the bridesmaid dresses for the first time. Here's what they look like:

Here's me dancing with my cousins in my dress that I bought a few days before the wedding to wear:

Not the greatest picture of me but you can see the resemblance in the dresses. The bridesmaids thought it was so funny and called me the honorary bridesmaid. At least the bride wasn't angry, but there was no way that I could have known. I even forgot that their colours were red and white. A big accomplishment for me was my 3.5 inch heels. They have a stiletto heel with an open toe. I wore them for 3-4 hours and they were comfortable. I could walk and dance around and they didn't hurt my feet! Before it was torture just standing in them for any length of time but it was so much better this time. I don't know if this has anything to do with my legs and core getting stronger and being leaner, but I like to think that it does. I only took them off after a few drinks because tequila and heels like that do not mix!

We arrived Friday afternoon and I really wanted to go for a walk/run Saturday morning but on the way up I started coming down with a sinus cold and the weather was grey and bleak in the morning so that got cancelled. I'm still not feeling great from it, I took lots of cold stuff this morning when I woke up but I have a bit of a sore throat and I feel really dry. I did go to Fitness World last night when me and my mom got back into town and I did the elliptical for 50 minutes. I wish I did more but I was tired from travelling and from the sickness. I didn't track my eating either and I weighed myself this morning and the result was not too bad. I'm only up 0.1 lbs and I can definitely live with that. I may even be able to make this week's LHA weigh in a loss again!

Today's plan is to go back and work out again and get my eating on track. It shouldn't be too hard to do that (knock on wood) as when I was house sitting for my aunt all last week I fell into a nice rhythm but we'll see how it goes being back home now. Food journal will be posted later tonight. Have a great day everyone and I hope your long weekend is going well!

PS: If you missed the picture of Nathan, my personal trainer, that I posted last time, check it out here! I'm really starting to think that I'm crushing on this boy.

Thursday, May 20, 2010


Today is like my Friday as I'm leaving to go out of town tomorrow morning, bright and early. I'm going to get a manicure and a pedicure with my mommy and I'm packing up everything that I'm going to need for this weekend away: sunscreen, a book or two, my sun dresses, sandals, my wedding attire, etc.

And also because Lisa asked about a picture of my trainer Nathan, I stole grabbed this off Facebook.

This is the before and after picture he shows all his clients (so it's not totally underhanded....LOL). On the left, he weighed 260 lbs in January 08 and on the right, he weighs 190 in January 09. He has a very cute face and has a little Michael Bublé vibe going on (and in case you didn't know, Michael Bublé is my husband. He just doesn't know it yet).

Very hot, non? Food journal and daily recap coming later!

Much love~

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

End of Day Report

I forgot how good I feel after I do a really good work out! Nathan was fantastic today. Instead of doing a cardio bootcamp thing today (in part because he and his work buddies broke a glass window in the fitness class room playing soccer LOL) we did weights today. I hadn't done weights in probably about two weeks and I don't even know why I didn't do it. It's likely the same reason why I haven't been working out, period. There were still a few elements of our cardio work out in the weight routine (about a million or two lunges, at least they weren't burpies or something heinous like that) and that was good. I was sweating like a pig and I loved every calorie burning minute of it. He didn't like it when I told him that I hadn't been doing my weight program. He wants me to be successful so he was a little upset but not nearly as upset as I have been with myself.

Something he said (that had relatively nothing to do with weight loss or exercise, at least not immediately), I found very interesting. He said that I shouldn't let other people decide my life for me and that I have to make decisions for myself. I think that he sees that I'm a very shy person that would much rather be polite and let other people go ahead of me, keep quiet and stop what I'm doing in order to facilitate them, rather than charge in, so to speak. This stems from my self-esteem and how I see myself in front of strangers. He was kind of talking about my previous relationship when he mentioned the part abut letting other people decide my life for me, but it didn't quite hit the nail on the head of the issue. With me and my ex, I was the one making decisions for the two of us and I hated it. I would have loved for him to take charge and be responsible, which is something he could never really do. Now, I have to make decisions that aren't always a compromise and I have to make decisions that are best for me and what I want. It is a little daunting. Nathan is such a great guy (and really super cute!), how I wish that he were single. Not that I would ever do anything about it in my current state. I think that with his background he would want someone who is fit and healthy, but of course I don't really know anything about his girlfriend (all I know is that she is a 3rd year pre-med student and her parents are rich and they have a time-share in Whistler...hooray). If he ever found this blog I would die of embarrassment, due to the things that I have said about him.

I did buy a new dress today, tomorrow when I get my toes and nails done, I'll take a picture and post it for you guys and gals.

My Food Journal for May 19th
  • Apple Larabar
  • 3 eggs, whole
  • 2 slices whole wheat bread
  • 1 oz cheddar cheese
  • Cherry Larabar
  • 1 oz smoked Gouda cheese
  • 4oz chicken breast
  • 1 cup spinach
  • 1 tomato
  • 1/4 onion
  • 1 tbsp olive oil
  • 1 cup mocha protein drink from Bolthouse Farms with 1/4 cup coconut milk
  • 1/2 cantaloupe.

LHA Week 2 Weigh In

Last week's weight: 227.3 lbs
This week's weight: 226.5 lbs (-0.8)
This week's exercise minutes:  180 minutes

I was really surprised when I realized that I had lost weight. I was really not expecting that. All things considered, I'll take it and be happy. Today I'm going to buy a new dress for my cousin's wedding this weekend. I'll be up in the interior of the province and I'll be away from the computer from Friday morning until Sunday night. I'm going to see Nathan today and then go to Curves to get my monthly measurements done. When I get back home, I'll post those as well with my daily food journal. Hope you're all having a great day!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

May 18th should be as harmless as May 19th

Today started off good, until I realised what day it was. Today is May 18th. If me and Ian were still together, it would have been our 5 year anniversary today and I almost managed to escape that fact. We broke up about a week ago. I started balling my eyes out for the first time since we broke up, full on can't breathe, heaving, and the front of my shirt is soaking. And then I got a little more stupid and picked today as the best day to return some more of his stuff. And while I was there, he told me "Happy Anniversary". That didn't help the hysterics any.

I'm really nervous about the LHA weigh in tomorrow. I've been feeling really bloated and sluggish for the last couple days, almost a week, and today I found out why. It's that time. So tomorrow I have to weigh in after spending the week stressed out, not having really worked out, and at the very beginning of my period. YAAyyyy....

My Food Journal for May 18th
  • 1 cup Kashi Lean Crunch ceral
  • 3/4 cup Organic skim milk
  • 1/2 banana
  • 12 almonds
  • 1 1/2 cups spinach
  • 1 tbsp veggie hummus
  • 4 oz chicken
  • 1/2 whole wheat pita
  • Cherry Larabar
  • 1 cup mocha protein drink from Bolthouse Farms

Monday, May 17, 2010

Monday Sch-monday

Today was a blah day. I started a new job as a receptionist in Vancouver but the company is really slow, so I didn't have to answer too many calls. Unfortunately, that left me with a lot of free time and not a lot to do. I'm working with someone that I know from Curves, she works at this company as a bookkeeper/accountant, and she told me to bring in a book when I come in. I was there for 4 hours and I spent most of that time reading New Moon for the billionth time (I love those books, every summer I take it upon myself to reread the entire Harry Potter series and since Twilight series came out, I've added that to my seasonal reading as well). Somehow, I just seem to attract slack jobs. Not that I mind entirely, it would just be nice to use my skills to something a bit more challenging, but hey, I'm not going to complain about getting paid to read my book!

I really, really, really meant to go to the gym this evening after dinner. Really. My eating is getting a lot better. I am remembering to eat more often and to eat better stuff, but sometimes it feels like I can only do one of these things at a time. My exercise has been slacking. Since Wednesday (the first weigh in for the LHA challenge) I have only logged 140 minutes of activity. Most of it was on Wednesday with Nathan, 95 minutes, and I roller skated for 45 minutes on Sunday. With all the time it takes for me to think about eating right and to plan my meals, exercise is falling by the wayside.

I had another TAADAA moment today when I was getting ready to go to work. Because it is an office, I had to find pants to wear that were not jeans so I pulled out a pair of grey plaid pants that I bought around the same time as I bought my favourite grey jeans from Old Navy so I hoped that they would fit me...and they did! It wasn't the same kind of feeling as yesterday with the tears and all the emotions because I expected them to fit, but it was nice all the same :)

I'm going to try to be good from now on and post what I am eating everyday. Maybe it will help keep me away from the things that I KNOW I should not be eating, but reach for any way. I love how Karen over at ✯FiTCETERA✯ posts all her food and even takes great pictures of it too! And a huge thanks to her for telling me that I can find Larabars at Superstore (even though I didn't find them there it made me go on the hunt and I travelled to two different Save-On Foods before I found them LOL). I bought a few for around $2.50 each so I think I have to take a journey out to Costco with my mom, who has the membership card, and see if I can get my hands on a case of them. They are fantastic! (I've only tried the Apple flavour for now but I also bought Cherry and Cashew and I have high hopes for them) What I really love about them is that they have like 6 ingredients, all of which your average 10 year old can identify. In the Apple bar there is: dates, almonds, dried apples, walnuts, raisins and cinnamon. That's it. No funny chemicals or things that take you the better part of 30 seconds to figure out how to pronouce. They are approved by Jillian Michaels, who is seriously my god/idol and the gorgeous figure head of well-being and fitness right now. I would so do her.

My food journal for Monday May 17th
  • 3/4 cup vanilla yogurt
  • 1/2 cup pinapple
  • 1/4 cup Nature's Path granola cereal
  • 1 cup cheries
  • 1 whole egg
  • 7oz salmon (3 oz for lunch, 4 oz for dinner)
  • green salad with 1/2 tomato
  • 60ml goat tzaziki (makes a great salad dressing!)
  • 1/2 avacado
  • handful of carrot sticks
  • 1tsp olive oil
  • flax seeds
  • 1 cup organic skim milk
  • 1 Apple Larabar

My dinner :)

My new obsession!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Say "Hello" to My Old Friend

I want to introduce you all to an old friend of mine today. This is her:

These are my size 18 "The Sweetheart" jeans that I bought from Old Navy in September of 2009. I LOVED them. These were my go-to jeans when I was going out, or going to school. Whatever I was doing, I was doing it in these jeans. Well then for a while I went through my "all exercise pants, all the time" phase and one day, on the way out to Wal-mart, all my exercise pants were in the wash. I had to put on something, so I reached for my handy grey jeans...

(Hold your breath for dramatic pause, even though I know that most of you can see this coming)

They didn't fit. I had to lay on my back on my bed to do them up, but even then it felt like I was working against gravity, or that there were two super magnets on each side that were repelling each other and it took so much effort to get them to button. When I stood up and looked in the mirror I had a a huge muffin top. There was at least 2-3 inches of STUFF on each side of my hips and stomach that hung over the edge.

I was so depressed because I hadn't really even felt the extra weight creep up on me. I was so out of tune with my body (as I have been most of my life) that I didn't notice that I was gaining weight. Did I know that I wasn't eating healthy and no making good lifestyle choices? Absolutely, but I couldn't notice it before when I gained 5 or 10 lbs. Hell, I still don't notice when I gain or lose weight. Sometimes I can see it or feel it when I put my hands on my hips, but my body doesn't feel different day to day in how it operates.

Well since me and my ex broke up, I was cleaning out my closet and all my clothing drawers: filtering through what he had left, what I didn't want anymore and was donating, and what didn't fit. I was looking at my jeans because there are a lot of jeans in my closet that don't fit anymore but I keep them in hopes that they will again. I just can't bear to get rid of them. I had only recently said to my mom that I need new jeans as the 21's that I got at Wal-Mart were getting too big, even when they had just come out of the dryer. This is how it happened...

I saw my favourite jeans in the back of my closet.
I hesitated.
The little voice in the back of my head said "Should I? I know that I've lost inches, but have I lost that much?"
Ah, what the hell? I do need new jeans.
Looking at them, the voice says, "Ya know, those do look a little small..."
But then........


They fit! No arguments with my clothes, no crazy sweating work out trying to get into them, they comfortably fit, I'm even sitting at my computer typing this while wearing them! At least my hard work is paying off somewhere! Just after I got them on and looked in the mirror, I started crying. It just feels so good to wear them again, and I love how my hips look now in ratio to my waist. I have a 39" waist but my hip measurements have a difference of over 10". I would love to be able to accentuate my smaller waist but it just makes my hips look even bigger.

 I hope that a lot of you, my followers, have felt like this in your weight loss journeys, that all the blood, sweat and tears that you gave are paying off for you!

Friday, May 14, 2010

What if?

I was watching week 17 of The Biggest Loser today on the computer because I missed it on Tuesday. They were down to the final 5 contestants and their challenge involved them carrying the weight that they had lost over the 16 previous weeks and hauling it up mounds of sand. Some of them had to move 100+ pounds around they got stuck, sinking further into the sand as they tried to climb this big hill. This was oddly familiar to me as I had just written a blog post about a 10 lbs medicine ball  and hauling that around in my work out. Granted, they were moving 10 times more weight than I was, but the concept is the same. What really hit me about this episode was that each participant watched a short movie about their time on the ranch with either Bob or Jillian. While watching Ashley's footage, it flashed back to a moment in either week 1 or week 2 when she and her mother, Sherry, were talking about the Biggest Loser gym:

Ashley: What if I go in there, and I can't do it?
Sherry: But what if you go in there, and you can?

I was just floored. I kind of remember her saying this before, but it really hit me more this time around. I cry a lot when I watch Biggest Loser because it hits so close to home and I develop feelings for each of the contestants (some more than others). I love Ashley, and now with Sunshine out of the final 4, I really want her to win it. Even if she doesn't, she's going to look fantastic! She already does.
So, what if I go full steam ahead and I can do it? I haven't really completed any goal of mine in my life. Not when it has come to my health and fitness. I think that that is why I am reluctant to set goals for myself, because I'm not sure that I can make them. If I make a goal for my weight loss, there is the possibility that I will fail at it. I'm more comfortable just doing it. Not telling myself that I have to lose 20 lbs by the end of the month, but knowing that I will get there eventually.

Nathan says that I have to start changing my lifestyle: eating healthier, committing to coming in to the gym 3 or 4 times a week, and then later I can work on setting weight loss goals for myself. That makes sense. I have to build the foundation of my "pyramid", so to speak, before I can climb it. But baby, when I'm climbing, look out!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

LHA Week 1 Weigh-In and Putting Things into Perspective

Last week's starting weight: 227.2
This week's weight: 227.3 (+0.1)
Minutes of activity: 305 minutes

I'm not surprised. With my binge last week and not really working out like I should be, I knew that I was not going to lose any weight. And I'm okay with that. It comes from realizing that in order to get to where I want to be, I'm going to have to work for it. And I'm going to have to work hard. I still think that I'm a little jaded in the sense that I'm waiting to wake up one day and just be magically skinny, or because I used to spend money on "fat flush pills" and hang out at the gym (not working out, just being there) that I would lose weight. I've waited for that day to come for years. I'm working on breaking 20 years of bad habits that are so ingrained and comfortable. It's going to be slow work.

In other news, I worked out with Nathan today. I was up way too late last night (4 am) with my friend, Kyle,  watching Moulin Rouge because I was depressed about being fat and single so he came over to keep me company and it really hindered my work out. I've been stressed about things with my ex and school, so I was just not feeling into exercise. We had to end early because I just couldn't do it. My legs were shaking and they would not hold me up. One of the exercises I did today, though, is called a dip and twist or something like that. How it works is I hold a medicine ball in my hands and bend over, touching the ball to the ground in front of my left toe (legs are slightly more than shoulder width apart) and then pulling the ball back up to my chest while twisting to my right and then pressing the ball into the air over my right shoulder, so the ball is moving diagonally across my body. We do this  I do this 15 times on each side using a 10 lbs medicine ball. To put things into perspective, I've lost around 10 lbs from my heaviest weight, and this ball was heavy! It made me feel a little better about what I have accomplished, even if it isn't a lot in comparison to everything I still have to do, but after I did my 15 reps on one side I was ready to die. You don't really realize how much 10 lbs can effect your body while it is a part of you. I couldn't imaging walking around all day with that 10 lbs ball strapped to my waist without being exhausted, but I've done that. Do you ever feel that way? When you have to lift the weight that you have lost outside of you body and then it hits you that you used to carry that around with you all the time?

I may not have lost a lot of weight, but I have lost inches and I'm becoming stronger. When I started working out with Nathan, it was hard to do a plank for 20 seconds, it was torture. Today I managed to get up to 40 seconds! I'm becoming healthier, regardless of what the scale says, but hopefully one day the scale will show me a number that represents all the hard work that I've done and all the work that is yet to come!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

The 10K Day

Today, Vancouver was a very busy place because every year there is a 10K race, the Vancouver Sun Run. A lot of the roads closed down to make way for the runners and walkers from all aspects of life and fitness. So this morning, me and 50,000 people, give or take a couple thousand, made our way through the downtown core for no other reason than to move our bodies around! I loathe waking up early, in fact I don't think that there is a word for distaste that is strong enough to say how much I don't like waking up early ("early" is any time before 10am) but I got up, on a Sunday morning no less, at 8am to go for a walk.

The feeling of starting the Sun Run with so many people is very exciting. The energy around you is just something else. I took some great pictures on my walk, but like a total GOOSE I forgot to put my memory card in my camera and I can't find the cable to get the pictures off the internal memory of my camera...I was very disappointed in myself.

Me and my dad walked the whole way together and I am so proud that he was able to complete the whole thing without stopping. He and my mom have been training for this for weeks and my dad is not in the best shape of his life either, whereas I'm not in fantastic shape either but my mom asked me a few days ago if I wanted to come and I said "Oh, yeah I guess I could". I wasn't even registered in the run, I just kind of jumped in and followed the crowd and timed myself. LOL! We finished the 10K in 1:59:07, which doesn't include the four minute break to go to the washroom half-way. It was a good time for both of us, if I was on my own, I probably would have finished a bit sooner. When I did it on my own two years ago it took me an hour and fifty-four minutes. But oh man, my legs are so sore now! Tonight, I have a date with a bottle of Advil and my heating pad!

PS: It was a beautiful 17 Celsius degrees up in Vancouver (62.6 Fahrenheit), sunny with a breeze and I managed to get a good sun burn all over my face and arms. I can't believe it's only the beginning of May!

PPS: I found the cable for my camera! Go me! Here are some pictures from the run today :)

Waiting to cross the starting line. It takes a while before most people get to start, when you register to do the run you have to say how long it will take you to do the 10K and the faster you can finish, the sooner you get to start the race so you don't have to jump in between people with strollers.

Crossing the starting line around 10am.

For a lot of people, the Sun Run is a chance to socialize and have fun. I don't know if this woman did the whole 10K on stilts or if she took them off after a while, but she passed everyone pretty quick with her long strides! There are corporate and school teams that join together and do the race, but there was a man that was running around in a marijuana costume for team 420. He was actually full on running, darting in around people, it was pretty funny to see, shame I didn't get a picture of him.

The view as we walked over the Burrard St. bridge. Below are all the people a few blocks behind us.

I love Vancouver. So much.

The man just on the right,with the yellow sticker on his back is from Kamloops, which is a 5 hour drive or so away from Vancouver. People come from all over for the run/walk.

My mom and dad, dad is the one with the walking sticks and my mom is to his right. My mom finished the race in just under 81 minutes, she turned around and walked back to meet us as we were getting close to the finish line for the last 1/2 km or so.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

The Unexpected Binge

I don't even know what happened to me yesterday. I was super excited to be starting my LHS challenge and to be buying my roller skates and I just binged. It started at noon on the way home from the skate shop with a stop at McDonalds. I was super thirsty because I was stupid and left my water bottle at home and so I thought, "Hey, may as well stop and get some something to drink" and then we get in the drive-thru and I ask my friend, because he was kind enough to drive me out to Vancouver if he wanted anything for lunch, and then I ended up getting a McChicken Meal with a Coke. Funny part is, I DON'T EVEN LIKE COKE! But I drank the whole thing and the cups at McDonalds are not small, as I'm sure lots of people know. I don't know if that was actually funny, or just tragic. Dinner was good, I had a lean pork chop with a spinach salad but almost immediately after, I ate a big bag of Cheese Puffs. And then I had a pint of Haagan-Das for dessert at 10pm.

I went through a long McDicks stage before I started my weight loss adventures and this blog. There was a time when I went to McDicks every day and got large french fries, a large root beer and two double cheeseburgers and I would eat them in my car and put the garbage straight in the outside garbage bins because I knew that if someone found them that I would feel even more ashamed than I already felt. For the longest time, there was a McDonalds cup hidden in my desk because I couldn't throw it away for fear of my mom finding it and knowing that I ate there.

I can't figure out why I keep doing this to myself. The other day I was looking at myself in the mirror and I was so happy about the progress that I've been making in my health but I keep managing to sabotage myself. My problem with eating is not really that I eat a lot to the point that I am full, but that I don't eat a lot and what I eat is garbage. I've been trying to eat more often and filling my body with fuel that I can use to become stronger and give my body the nutrients it can use, not the artificial crap that our body does not recognise as food.

Tomorrow is a new day. I did better today, but not great. My knee is still really sore from working out with Nathan the other day, I think. My eating was better today, but not fantastic. All in all, tomorrow is a new day.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Day 1 of My Summer Challenge

Starting Weight:

Goal Weight for August 25th: 190.0 lbs
Before Pictures:

Don't I look so thrilled in my photos? My goals for My Long Hot Active Summer Challenge consist of:

a) losing 37 lbs, it's a steep order to fill but I think that if I really work hard at, I can accomplish it, or at least come close.
b) Work out 4-6 times a week doing my weight training and interval training on the treadmill/cardio equipment. I would like to log a minimum of 300 minutes of activity per week.

In other news today, I bought a pair of roller skates! The old school kind, the quads, and they are kick @ss but are a lot harder to use than they look. The feeling is totally different from inline skates.

I bought them here in Vancouver at store called Roller Girl and they ship all over Canada and the US. They are primarily an online store but they have a showroom if you can come in and they guarentee that your skates will fit and if you have any problems with them, they can find a way to fix your issues. I am so fascinated by roller derby that I would love to take up the sport, but the next thing I have to do is learn how to skate!