Wednesday, September 1, 2010


Remember those size 16 "The Flirt" jeans that I bought from Old Navy??!! Well....

They fit now! It may have something to do with the fact that I haven't eaten anything proper since Friday night as a result of my tongue piercings, but I have been eating fruit smoothies with protein powder to keep myself nourished (and soft banana bread...mmmmmm). Needless to say that I am over the moon at this news and I hit my goal way ahead of schedule as I had originally planned to get into these jeans by September 18th! I love being almost 3 weeks ahead!

I had announced this as an unofficial challenge to all of you, so how are you coming along? Have you tried them on since we last talked about it? Are you closer to fitting into them than you were? Let me know how it's going for you!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Back from the Dead!

Not me, my internet modem. It decided that I play too much World of Warcraft and read too many blogs so it crapped out on me. I can't talk long, I'm at work, but I thought that I would let you all know that I am alive and well. Weight is at a stand still and I feel all bloaty (TOM today...yay...). Eating could be a lot better for me but I am working on it.

In other news, I had my tongue pierced last night! I got my venoms done:

Not me, but I figured not everyone would know what I meant by "venoms"

It hurt so freaking bad!! It takes the cake as my most painful piercing, hands down. Today, ice chips and Advil are my best friends. I sound like an idiot too so I'm trying not to talk to too many people!

Take it easy everyone, I'll check in again soon!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

It's all in the Jeans

So, a couple of you may remember a post I made several months ago about my favorite pair of jeans. They were a gray, size 18, "Sweetheart" cut from Old Navy that I bought last September before school started and over the course of the following months, the months I refer to as my "yoga pant phase" in which I exclusively wore yoga/exercise stretchy pants (even though there was no exercise going on), I managed to put on 10-20 pounds without even being aware of doing so. One day I put on these Sweetheart jeans and they no longer fit. To say the least, I was devastated but once I started losing weight again, I pulled them out of the closet and they fit. I was so happy I balled like a child. They didn't fit perfectly and I had some muffin top going on, but I could do them up. Previously, there was a good 3-5 inch gap and even laying back on my bed, they would not even budge over my mondo hips.

The picture of the momentous occasion
I got a new pair of jeans recently , size 18, in a dark wash called "The Flirt" from Old Navy again (I really love Old Navy jeans, they are the only kind that I don't wear holes in the inner thigh) and I really love them, but the waist was too big when I bought them and the thighs had a bit of room to them, but I loved the cut and the colour and they were super comfy so I bought them anyways. Now, after I wear them a while, they  stretch out like jeans do and if I were not wearing a belt, they would slide right down my butt!

I went out today and bought a new pair of jeans in the same colour and same style, except in a 16. I tried them on in the dressing room and...hold your breath...

They didn't fit. BUT they didn't fit by only about an inch to two inches and they were comfortable through the leg and thigh, they were just a bit small in the waist. And I bought them. I know that they WILL fit me soon. My eating has been way better than it was a few weeks ago and I am fitting in my workouts better, too!

I am making a goal for myself, and goals are something that I rarely set, let alone give a time line too, but here we go. I'm announcing it to the world and you can help keep me accountable! My goal is to have these jeans fit me by September 18 2010. I'm going to hang these jeans up on my closet door where I can see them everyday and try them on occasionally to keep track of my progress.

What am I going to do to reach my goal?
  • No junk food in the house! As long as I don't see it, I don't want it but it's difficult because there are 4 other people in my house to bring it in! But I won't go looking for it.
  • I will regulate my sleep schedule by deciding on a bed time and setting an alarm for the morning. I wanted to go to a spin class this morning before work but because I was up too late last night, I slept in and missed it!
  • I will give it my all in my workouts with Nathan and push myself in cardio!
  • And finally, the holy grail of weight loss success: I will track my food intake. I've been really really bad about this for the past...2 months. I was in the habit and then I just fell out of it, but tonight I'm going to buy myself a brand-spanking-new food journal and hopefully it will encourage me to keep better track.
I'm opening it up to you all, an unofficial jean challenge. Do you have a pair of jeans sitting in your closet that you are dying to get into again? Are you between sizes and really want to to get down into the size you want? Try them on, see how far you have to go (but don't forget how far you've already come!) and take a picture. God knows, it may not be pretty right now but use it as a reference. If you do, leave me a comment and let me know about it! I want to know how it goes for you!

Much love~

PS: Today I even bought skinny jeans. Like, really cute, black, tight skinny jeans. Again, very comfortable, I bought them in an 18 because they are super low rise and they would sit at a wider area of my hips and I'm sure they are more cotton/spandex than denim and they will probably shrink when I wash them! Another monumental occasion!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Today is kind of like my Friday...

Today is my fifth straight day at work, woe is me! I'm kidding, I love my job, but I am looking forward to having a day off. My plan for this morning was to go to spin class at 9:30am but....I ended up sleeping until 11:30. Needless to say, spin class was finished by then. I've been to a few different classes taught by a couple different trainers and I'm really enjoying it. My mom has been to a few with me but I know she's not crazy about them so I don't know how much longer she is going to continue with them.

Well, I went a whole 6 sentences without talking about my trainer Nathan, who I have a crazy crush on (I totally had a dream about him last night but I'm taking the details of it with me to the grave). So, continuing my story from Wednesday, we talked to his manager and got everything squared away. It wasn't actually as big of a deal as I thought it was going to be. I really thought that I was going to have to haggle my heart out and complain but nothing of the sort happened. I get to continue paying my original rate for the next chunk of sessions I bought, but if I buy more again after, I'm going to have to pay the higher rate. I can deal with that. When I was talking to Nathan, he told me that he saw his old manager Mark, the guy that tried to convince me to find a new trainer at my home gym, when he was with a client at my gym and he considered saying something to him along the lines of "I really don't appreciate how you're trying to steal my clients" but he thought better of it, and I'm glad. There is no sense causing drama over such a little thing and he should know that as long as he is a person trainer (and I can afford it), I'll stick with him. He also said that Mark reminds him of a "used car salesman" which totally makes sense to me, and it was that kind of feeling I was getting from him over the phone.

My eating has been getting (mostly) on track the last week and a bit. I was struggling with certain crunchy, salty snacks late at night but I am mastering my impulses and exercising control. Back to chicken and salad for me! Because I am working at the largest mall in British Columbia, it is so convenient to buy dinner at the food court before work. I thought that I was being really good because I was going to Quizno's, which I WRONGLY ASSUMED was on par with Subway. The sandwich was great, of course, but after a few days I thought that I would check online to see the nutrition page and give myself further praise for being a good girl and not going next door to New York Fries. Well, I was in for quite a shock. A medium veggie sandwich was 750 CALORIES!! My jaw hit the floor. I couldn't believe it and I just couldn't figure out where all the calories were coming from! Well, they were from the cheese, the sause and the bread. A whopping 750 calories. I guess I'm going to have to start packing my dinner instead!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Another week, another weigh in

Wednesday weigh in day! Here we go:

Last week: 224.8 lbs
This week: 222.1 lbs
Difference: -2.7 lbs
Activity Mins: 240 mins (240 quality mins)

Body fat last week: 39.9%
Body fat this week: 39.7%
Difference: -0.2%

Overall, not a bad week. I'm still recovering from getting home from vacation and getting back into the swing of things. I started going to a spin class at my gym and I went twice last week. I really enjoyed it, more than I though I would. I worked up a good sweat and pushed my limits.

It was my birthday yesterday and I was really depressed all day. I don't like thinking about how I'm getting older for a few reasons. I was in an alright mood in the morning and then I went and worked out with my trainer Nathan in the early afternoon, and I really enjoyed seeing him. The new gym that he is working at is HUGE. The women's change room is as big as the weight room at my gym! It's a really nice, new gym, but the layout is a little strange. Anyways, I did my work out with him but at the end of it, he told me that there was some kind of change happening with the prices for personal training. He had told me this before when we were at my gym before he was transferred but he said that he would continue to do it for the price that I was originally paying. Well I think that his new manager has an issue with that, but Nathan and I are going to have a meeting with his manager on Thursday to discuss the prices and stuff and figure out what is going to work. Again, I was in an alright mood until I got home and told my mom about all this and we ended up having an argument about money and then my grandmother, who lives with us, told me that she doesn't want me driving her car to work any more for no other reason than "because". If she had given me a proper reason, I would have been fine with it, but her "because I said so" just grates on my nerves.

To make the training thing even more of an issue, my dad has started working with a rehabilitation trainer to work on his back and his knees at my gym. Well, without knowing the whole story about what is happening with Nathan and I, my dad mentioned to his trainer that he was worried that this new manager at Nathan's new gym was trying to take advantage of me and was going to get me to pay more, and that Nathan was involved in this and had told me that I HAD to follow him to his new gym. Well, his trainer, Sarah, told her manager, who called me and said that if I wanted to find a new trainer at my original gym, that he would set up as many free consultations I needed in order to find a new trainer AND he would honor my old rate, regardless of which trainer I chose in the end. He even offered to train me himself, and I think his rate is twice what I was paying with Nathan. The whole conversation felt off to me and I got a really strange vibe from him. I felt like he was trying to manipulate me and play up my dad's confusion over the situation by telling me that my dad was "really concerned" about me travelling out of my way to stay with Nathan. I pretty much just wanted out of this conversation because I don't totally know what is happening with Nathan in regards to pricing, that is what the meeting with his new manager tomorrow is going to establish as I have to purchase more sessions next week if I want to continue working with a trainer. I sent Nathan a text message to tell him what was happening because I assumed that he would want to know that his old boss was trying to get me back at Delta with a new trainer.

Me: Your old boss called me about finding a different trainer with them in Delta. I thought it was odd and that you might want to know.
Nathan: Alright thanks.
**Here I'm assuming he called his old manager because I got this next a few minutes later**
Nathan: Apparently is was just to make sure you knew that was an option and that I wasn't forcing you to come [to Langely]
Me: Yeah he said that, my dad mentioned to Sarah that "Lanley jacked up the prices on me" but my dad didn't know the whole story.
Nathan: Weird. You know that isn't the case though.
Me: Yeah I know. I told Mark, you and I were talking to your manager Thursday. Today has been a f*cking gong show since I got home.
Nathan: Lol crazy.
Me: Ergh, not in a good way :S
Nathan: No it doesn't sound that way. Lol sorry for the confusion.
Me: No worries, it's not your fault.
Nathan: Everything is always my fault, ask my woman.
Me: Ha, well if you're so keen to take the dad just practically stuck his foot in his mouth.
Nathan: Lol
Me: But I told [your old manager] that I didn't know the full details about pricing and I would find out Thursday, & if I changed my mind I'd let him know.
Nathan: Alright, either way we'll get you set up Thursday.
Me: Sounds good, but just so you know, I'm not likely to change my mind. The drive wasn't too bad :P
Nathan: I'm not worried.

Do I realise that I may not be staying with Nathan for the right reasons? Absolutely, but does that mean that Nathan is not a good trainer? We work well together and he knows me and how I work out. He knows that I'm going to bitch and complain, but in the end, I'll do it, and he knows how to push me. But at the same time, he understands my limits and what I can accomplish. At least now that I know how keen the Delta club is to have me back, I can use that when I talk to the Langley manager when we talk prices.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

100th Post!

So much to say in this post! For starters, it is my 100th post since I started this blog! Hooray! I am back from vacation now and I'm having difficulty shaking the lazy feeling that accompanies you when you spend a week sleeping in and hanging out reading on a beach. I'm just so very hard-done-by, I know, but please don't feel too sorry for me.

It is Wednesday which means it is weigh in day. The week I was away, I didn't eat too much, but everything I ate had little to no nutritional benefit. We rented a cottage and bought our own food but there wasn't a whole lot of green stuff. It may have been easier on me if we were going out for lunches and dinners and whatnot at restaurants because then I could have ordered healthy things that I wanted or felt like having for dinner. I few times I though to myself, "Hey, I feel like a spinach salad with some tuna. Oh but wait, there is no spinach or tuna...I guess I'll chow down on some cheese and crackers."

Last weigh in: 219.9 lbs (July 21st)
This week: 224.8 lbs
Difference: +4.9 lbs
Exercise: 120 mins (60 quality mins)

Body fat: 39.9%

Funny thing is, when I stand I often put my hands on my hips and I could feel that my waist was smaller so I didn't think that I had gained THAT much. I anticipated a few pounds, 2 or 3, but not almost 5 pounds in a week. My mom and I were talking last night and she said that she gained 4 lbs and she weighs about 155 lbs or so. I weighed myself when we got home on Saturday, and I weighed 226.7 or so and I'm glad to see that the number is going down more now that I am home. Also, Sunday night I got my period (which I was not expecting) so I'm a little bloated from that too and I think that at least a little of the weight I gained is water from all the sodium and processed things that I ate last week. I have a million excuses!

Getting back into the swing of normal life, I went and worked out with my trainer Nathan yesterday. How I missed him! Unfortunately, right off the bat he says to me, "So I have some news." The first thing that I can think is that he got another job. His carreer ambition is to be a police officer actually, but he told me months ago that he doesn't apply for that until April or so. Then he tells me that he is being transfered to another Fitness World, 30-40 mins away. He had applied to share his time between my current gym and the one out there, because he lives an hour away from my location and this other location is going to be easier and faster for him to get to, but they fully transferred him out there. When he told me that he was going to working at another location I just about cried, but I held it together. So my options are to follow him out there and train there with him twice a week like I would be at my current gym, find a new trainer, or use my final 3 work outs with Nathan and not continue with personal training. I don't really want to find a new trainer because I work well with Nathan and I like that he knows me, what I'm capable of, where I started with him and he knows how hard to push me. I can't really see continuing with training if it's not with him so I guess that means that I'm going to be making the drive out. He is going to be at my location until the end of the week and starting Monday he will be out at the other location full-time. I'll be working out with him again on Thursday this week and then hopefully Tuesday, depending on my schedule, I'll drive out and see him again. Tuesday is actually my birthday and he said that he'll do a free session with me as a birthday gift from him and because I am going to be following him out there.

I've been kind of lacking in the exercise department as of late, even before I went away, but last night my mom and dad both signed up at my gym! Hopefully that gives me a kick start to go more often with them as motivation. I'm really proud of my dad for doing this, even if he is only doing it for my mom. He has never been a gym member for as long as I have been alive and he is about 260 lbs. As a bonus for me, because I referred two people, I get 6 months free and the girl who signed up my parents gave us all 3 months of spin classes for free. I've seen them doing spin and I thought that it looked *fun* and I've wanted to try it but I knew that it was extra and I just hadn't gotten around to talking to one of the membership reps about it because they do give out free trials. 3 months of spinning is $99+tax and if I end up really liking it, I may spend the money to do it. Have any of you tried spinning? Did you like it?

Until next time, have a great rest of the week!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Yes, I am on vacation down the Oregon coast and I really have to say that I am totally jealous. Down here on the beach you can drink alcohol, have bonfires, and bring your dog. None of these things can I do on the beaches back home? Not that I can legally drink down here, being almost 20, but I'm already thinking about the road trip possiblities next year. We had one day of nice sunny weather on Sunday but since then it had been mostly cloudy, but it warm all the same. The waves here are so incredible, I'm surprised I haven't seen more surfers.

The only thing that I would change about this trip is I wish that I had someone here to share it with. I keep changing my mind about being single. There are times when I'm glad that I am single and I like the freedom of talking to who I want to and making plans without having to worry about someone else, but at the same time it gets lonely. I've signed up on a few dating sites and I've been talking to a few guys but so far, nothing serious or even casual. I keep having dreams where I'm with a guy and when I wake up, I miss it so.

I can be parient and I know that I'm not going to be alone forever. I don't need a partner to feel whole as I am content being on my own but there are things that are best done in pairs...

Saturday, July 24, 2010

And the winner is....

Congrats to Aylilth for winning the Biggest Loser Family Cookbook that I am giving away to celebrate dropping 18 lbs and getting my own first weight loss reward, a Biggest Loser Cookbook! Thanks to everyone who entered. Aylilth, please email me your contact info to so I can have it shipped out to you (all the way to the land down under!).

I am currently in Seaside, Oregon, enjoying the sights and sounds of the beach. My family and I got down here a few hours ago and we're renting a cottage, so we just finished grocery shopping and we're getting ready to have dinner (Turkey breast and salad). Hope everyone is having a great Saturday and that your weekend endevours are successful!

Much Love~

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Last Chance!!

Just a reminder that as of RIGHT NOW you have exactly 24 hours to enter for your chance to win a Biggest Loser Family Cookbook, courtesy of me. I will ship the book out free of charge to the winner and ANYONE is eligible to enter. For full details, check out the OFFICIAL ENTRY POST HERE and leave a comment for your chance to have up to 4 entries in this giveaway.

Cut off is 9PM PST Friday the 23 rd so be sure to get your entries in ASAP!

This is my first giveaway to celebrate dropping below 220 lbs and losing 18 lbs, so I really want to give this away to a lucky follower, get in your entry tonight!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Weigh In #11 and Weighing In...

Where has the time gone my lovelies? Week 11 already with only 5 weeks left! I've met some fabulous new bloggers in this time and I love each and every one of them!

Last week: 219.0 lbs
This week: 219.9 lbs
Difference: +0.9 lbs
Exercise: 130 mins

A gain, as to be expected. I'm not going to dwell on it, I did some stupid things this past week (food wise) and I haven't been getting in the time at the gym like I would have liked.

Now brace yourselves, I did something on Sunday that NO WOMAN should ever have to do. None of us look forward to it. In fact, it is probably the easiest way to dock 10 points of your self-esteem in less than 5 seconds. I'm sure even the skinny ladies aren't a fan of this, let alone me, weighing in at almost 220 lbs! That's right, it's that time of the year....

Swimsuit shopping

So because I'm going down to Oregon for a week to enjoy the beaches and summer sun (knock on wood for nice weather!), I thought that I should go down and get a swimsuit, as I don't own swimming bottoms. As a personal challenge to myself, I wanted to try and find bikini bottoms, not board shorts or those skirt-y things. In a manner of speaking, I succeeded and found myself a pair that fit but it was shockingly difficult! You would think that because it is the middle of July that there would be LOTS of swimming stuff around. WRONG! All the department stores are now prepping for the fall and all the bathing suits have been moved to clearance and can now only be found in horrible patterns and XS sizes. I went to Wal-Mart and found nothing. Sears and The Bay, nothing. SwimCo had nothing that interested me for less than $200. A few things crossed my mind in the dressing rooms:
  • Am I supposed to look like a beached whale?
  • Oh, God! What is that bright white thing that reflects all light? Oh, it's the back of my thigh.
  • If it's uncomfortable around your knees, don't force it any further. The result will NOT be attractive.
  • I'm going to slaughter the person that said "One more drink won't hurt" last weekend.
  • I wonder why burqas never caught on as beachwear?
  • Somewhere, a fashion designer is laughing at all the poor souls who though they could pull off this cut.
 I finally found something at this store called Aqua, the swimwear branch of La Vie en Rose, and dropped $60. I followed the "rules". Dark bottoms with a bright colour/print top to draw the eye away up and away from the hips. Here is what I came up with:

And if I get REAL DARING, there is this option too. I bought the top two summers ago:

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

All These Things That I Have Done

Well, a good friend of mine got a job as a radio DJ in Manitoba. She found out on Thursday and left yesterday. She is so unbelievably happy, this is what she has wanted to do for a long time, we gave her a send-off that lasted all weekend long. This epic send-off resulted in a lot of drinking, pub food, and calorie laden hang-over remedies. I feel so ill and bloated from it all and it's Tuesday!

Today I worked out with Nathan, my trainer, and I did a lot of leg stuff with cardio. We tend to split the work-outs into two groups: legs with cardio and arms with cardio, with core exercises thrown in a bit on both days. Last Wednesday when I saw Nathan, I did this new exercise where I grab a weight bench so that it is vertical to my body and jump over it whilst holding on to the bench. You may have seen this done on the Biggest Loser. Well, after so many reps I got pretty tired and then I wasn't jumping as high as I should have been (jumping is very difficult for me). Well then wouldn't you know it, on several occasions I bashed my shin into this bench resulting in a big monster bruise. I wish I had taken a photo of it on Thursday but alas, I only thought to today and it's faded. There was even a scrape on the left bruise where I scalped it!

Well, the point of this story is when I saw Nathan today, practically the first thing he says to me is:

Nathan: "What in the hell did you do to your shin?"
I laugh and give him this overly incredulous look.
Me: "You're asking ME what I did to my shin?" (note the inflection and thus inferring that he really did it to my shin).
Nathan: "Well I didn't think that you hit it that bad, I almost feel bad now. Almost, but not quite. I'm not really sympathetic."
Me: "You wouldn't be very good at your job if you were overly sympathetic."
Nathan: "That's very true."

He did call me "muffin" today jokingly, but I tried not to let it get to me too much. So what if I have a huge crush on my trainer?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

A Shout Out...

I was looking through my most recent posts and I felt that something was missing: a big, giant thank you. I want to take a minute to thank each and every one of you wonderful people who read my blog.You mean more to me than I could ever hope to tell you.

To the people who comment, you light up my day. It seriously makes me giddy inside knowing that you read what I wrote and you took the time out to comment on it. Even a little, "I know how you feel" or "Sounds like a fun day" makes me so happy.

To the people who follow silently, don't think that I have forgotten about you! Everyone of you keeps me accountable for my actions. I follow a good chunk of your blogs and reading about your success and being able to share my own with you keeps me focused and motivated. I pray and hope for the day that I can gleefully tell you all that I have reached my goal. If I may be so bold as to say that if I inspire even one of you to get up off your computer chair and get moving on your own journey, all the time and effort spent on this blog, in the gym, researching new foods and learning how bodies process foods, and cooking better things in the kitchen, is worth it. A million times over.

I'm glad that most of the people I follow are still blogging. Recently, someone who I was following abruptly stopped blogging and it actually made me feel really sad that I wouldn't see her daily updates as she was a big inspiration when it came to healthy eating, but for the most part, the weight loss community is strong and growing. Our shared quest to be healthier, fitter, more confident versions of ourselves is gaining momentum and there is nothing that can stop us now.

If you are around and reading the blogs, thinking to yourself wondering if you can do this weight loss thing, I'm going to tell you right now that you can. I'm not going to say that weight loss is easy. It is science. Move more, eat less crap, eat more green and leafy stuff. Calories in should be less than the calories you put out. That is the simple science of weight loss, but the act is so much more complicated than that. It is determination through our bad day and celebration of our good ones. Hopefully there are more good ones than bad ones, and believe you me, I know all about the bad ones. Weight loss is about changing a life time of poor habits and reconditioning ourselves that we are worth every bit of a long, active life.

This was my attempt at a gushy, motivational post. I hoped that I reached my aim. I recently hit my first weight loss milestone, an 18 lbs loss which is more than I lost when I was doing Weight Watchers, and to celebrate I am giving away a Biggest Loser Family Cookbook with great meal ideas that everyone can enjoy. If this is something that you are interested in winning (I'll send it out to the winner absolutely free) check out the official post and leave a comment there!

You're so Versatile!

Before I really get into this post, I want to remind everyone that I am GIVING AWAY ABSOLUTELY FREE A Biggest Loser Cookbook on Friday @ 9pst to celebrate dropping over 18lbs and getting below 220! If you want it, check out the offical post for full details.

 A couple of days ago, Hungry for Living bestowed upon me the honour of the Versatile Blogger award! I was really super pleased until I saw the conditions for accepting the award, as they are as follows:

  1. Thank the person who gave you the award
  2. Tell 7 things about yourself
  3. Nominate 15 NEW bloggers for the award and pass it on to them
  4. Notify said bloggers that they have received the award.
It was the second condition that hooped me, buuuut I found a loop hole! I don't have to come up with new stuff so I'm going to do some recycling. It is good for the environment after all. Here are 10 things about me from an older post!

1. I’m a super nerd. Every summer I read the Harry Potter series again for the billionth time. And the Twilight series. Oh yeah, and I play World of Warcraft.

2. I have 5 big squishy pillows on my bed but I only use one of them, and it’s always the same one, but I would hate to get rid of the other 4.

3. I kill potted plants. Not that I do it on purpose, I love having them in my room, they just don’t stay alive for too long. I think that it has something to do with the fact that I forget to water them.

4. When I was little, I loved witchcraft and the fantastical. I even had an Ouija board and I learned how to read Tarot cards. I wanted to be something special and a little more than ordinary, in my own way. I still wish that magic were real, hence my love for Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Charmed.

5. I love both the names Isabelle and Wyatt...and then my cousin gave those names to 2 or her children. Not that she knew that I wanted those names for my kids (should I ever have any) or even that I see her or her kids too often, but I’m undecided if I still want to name my kids that because there aren’t really two people in my family with the same names, let alone two sets of siblings.

6. I have a younger brother who is pretty much the only person in my immediate family that has not struggled with his weight at one point or another in his life. He is actually in really good shape. Most people in high school didn’t even know that we were related, we didn’t have an unusual last name to give it away. He is the polar opposite of me. Preppy, popular and all those clichés. If it couldn't fit any better, his girlfriends have all been tall, skinny, blondes.

7. I’ve always thought that my type of guy was the kind of guy who is shy, dark haired, musical, intelligent, and a bit of a rebel. I’ve been with two guys (technically 3, but I don’t count one of them but that is a whole other story) and both of them were blondes, not musical, amd not very intelligent.

8. I have a thing for pretty smelling hand and body creams...and then I never use them. I probably have a dozen or so that are scattered throughout my room and bathroom but I may have used each one of them once, maybe twice.

9. I’m addicted to music. I have a tattoo on my shoulder with music notes. I love all different kinds of music, pretty much anything that has a good rhythm to it, except for rap but even then there are distinctions between different kinds of rap, some that I actually like and some that I can’t even listen to. I’m mainly into modern rock, some mild punk rock and top 40 dance/pop. I love dancing too.

10. I check out girls more than I check out guys. It’s a self-esteem thing, but I can’t help but compare myself to other girls that I see and judge how I compare to them.

Congratulations to the following blogs who I am passing this lovely award on to:

Living Active
Fighting to be Formerly Fat
Watching and Weighting
Enough is Enough
Fitness: A Journey not a Destination

Losing 100 Pounds
Rescuing Lisa
Adjusting Anini
I'm Blossoming
Weighting Around

My Last Weight Loss Ever
Cupcakes to Carrot Sticks
Fat Girl Dives In
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Thursday, July 15, 2010

My First Giveaway!

Yes, in honour of dropping below 220 and earning myself my first weight loss reward, a Biggest Loser Cookbook, I am doing my very first giveaway.

I picked up a copy of the Biggest Loser Family Cookbook to send off to a lucky follower! I will pick a name out of a draw on FRIDAY JULY 23 at 9 PST (MIDNIGHT EST) so be sure to enter by then. I will send the book out to the winner at no cost to him/her as I will pay the shipping.

Anyone can enter so what do you have to do?! You will get ONE entry for each of the following that you do:
  • Become a follower and leave me a comment. If you are a follower already, leave me a comment so I know that you are still an active member of the weight loss community. When you leave a comment...
    • Tell me about how you incorporate healthy eating into your daily schedule and how you would like to improve your diet.
    • Tell me who your favorite Biggest Loser contestant was, and why?
    • Tell me a joke. I could use a few laughs!
  • On your blog, link back to this giveaway. Please tell me your web address so I can verify.
You could have 4 chances to win in this one and this is a great cookbook with plenty of ideas for the whole family. Good luck to all who enter, you have almost exactly one week before the draw date!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

LHA Weigh In: Are you ready for this?

Good news today in regards to the my LHA challenge, weight loss in general, and blogginess in general (pay attention at the end because it may concern YOU). Let's start with the challenge.

Last Week: 220.8 lbs
This Week: 219.0 lbs
Difference: -1.8 lbs
Exercise Minutes: 120 mins of quality work out

I FINALLY got through the 220 barrier! I was really thinking that I was going to be stuck hanging around the 220.1-220.5 for a while, but I managed to shatter it. The last time I lost weight, I got down to about 212 but then I kind of stopped trying and that was around April/June of last year. On average, I gain about 10 lbs every year and have for as long as I can remember, and when I went for my annual check up at my doctor's office last year in July, I weighed 216. 219 is still a gain of 3 lbs from last year at this time but when I consider that I TOPPED OUT at 238 in January, I've LOST 19lbs! I really hope that I can get down to 218 next week to make it an even 20 lbs deficit!

Right now, I'm at a point that I can't see the different in the mirror, except that my stomach is a little flatter, but the scale is moving. When I first started the LHA challenge, it was the opposite, lots of difference in the mirror and a stubborn scale.

The general good news concerning weight loss is because I have lost my 18 lbs to put me at 220 or below, I get my very first reward! Check it out on the sidebar to the right, I get a Biggest Loser Cookbook! Coincidentally, today is also payday, but I won't get a chance to make it to Chapters tonight as I get paid later and I have to work until 9pm. I'm considering also getting a Jillian Michaels cookbook, such as the Master your Metabolism cookbook, and see what kind of things are in there and if there is a guide of sorts for her weight loss plan. I'm really excited for this as I had not concocted a weight loss reward system prior to this bout of healthiness. (In honour of this, I feel a giveaway coming....stay tuned for details!)

Finally, Hungry for Living gave me the Versatile Blogger award!

The conditions for this award are to thank the person who gave it to you (THANKS A MILLION!), post 7 things about yourself, pass the award on to 15 newly discovered blogs, and to tell the recipients about their new award. When I saw the "post X number of things about yourself", I just about died inside. Why is there not an award to run 3 miles on the treadmill, or give up chocolate for a month? I'll manage to pull some stuff I haven't said out of my brain, but for me the hardest part is going to be choosing 15 NEW blogs (or at least new to me) so here's what I'm going to do.

Do I follow your blog already and you want to be considered for this amazingly adorable award? Comment on this post and say that you want to be considered, don't be shy or humble. If I don't follow your blog, leave me a comment here and tell me to! I'll check you out and you may get an award!
Step on up and tell me about your blog!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I'm Such a Sugar Doll

A few days ago, the marvelous Karen over at Muffin Fixation gave me the Sugar Doll Award. The conditions of accepting the award are as follows:

  1. Link back to the person that gave you the award in your post.
  2. Come up with 10 things that people don't know about you and post them.
  3. Pass the award on to three fellow bloggers.
Because I'm really bad at coming up with randoms things about me that I haven't already said in posts prior to this, I asked you, my lovely followers, to send me emails asking me questions about anything and everything. I really want to thank the 3 people that sent me an email, you had some good questions! (If you replied on my Facebook page, I can't check it right now as I'm at work and my boss has blocked Facebook on the router and I can't check it right now. When I check it later, I will update this post to reflect any questions I got there)

So here we go, 10 things about me.

1. Fat Girl vs. World wants to know how I do my eyebrows because they are "fantastic". I get my eyebrows threaded at a little East Indian place near my house for $3. It's a great deal and they do a pretty good job. I used to have them waxed, and I really think that waxing hurts less, but I would four times as much and threading is actually better for your skin, because the wax will pull at the skin and you can gradually lose the elasticity. So, I get my eyebrows threaded but I pluck the strays in between sessions.

2. Another reader wanted to know what my favorite pair of shoes is right now. I really have to go with my classic Converse's, but in purple. I wear them everywhere, from going out the mall and even to work, but when I exercise I have a pair of New Balance runners with light purple and silver accents that are super comfortable and great to work out in.

3. Aylilth sent me a great question and she wants to know what is my favorite guilty pleasure music, genres that are so bad, they're good, or bands that have a ridiculously catchy song (The way I understand the question is if I told someone that I actually like this stuff they would say "Are you being serious or is this your idea of a joke where I don't get the punch line?"). I have to go with Men at Work, Miley Cyrus (Can't be Tamed, Party in the USA), Boney M, Switch by Will Smith, Fergie à la London Bridge, and Mika (I REALLY love Mika). Some people don't understand why I'm so in love with Michael Bublé either because I'm covered in tattoos and piercings, they would assume I'd rather be at a metal show, but I really don't like metal. I can appreciate rock bands like Nirvana and ACDC too but even then, I'd rather listen to other things.

Those are all the questions I have received so I did come up with a few things that I hadn't shared before and here they are:

4. If I look at something, and I can't figure out how it works, I deem it too difficult and I lose my patience with it. I hate reading manuals so I would much rather figure it out by looking at it. This works with most cell phones, microwaves, and computer programs.

5. When I was in grade 7, the boy I had a crush on played the guitar and so I decided that I was going to learn how to play. I got the guitar that my late grandfather owned, an ancient 12 string, and taught myself how to play with a guitar book and a chord chart.

6. I've coloured my hair a bunch of different colours when I was younger. From about the time I was 14-18 I've had pink, blue, purple, green and red hair in varying shades.

7. I have a dog named Mulder (as in Fox Mulder from the X-Files, my dad was a huge fan) and he is 10 years old. He's a beagle-lab cross and such a suck up. When he wants something, he whines at me and it can be anything from he wants the toilet flushed (not there is anything IN there, he just wants fresh water) so he can drink out of it, or he'll whine at his dish if he's eaten all the food in it because he knows that he'll get more then. After dinner every night, he follows my mom around the house because he knows that it's time for his walk and when she makes lunch for my dad at night, he comes upstairs to watch and mooch for some lunch meat.

8. I also have several 3 fish, just little ones, and two snails in my 15 gallon tank. The snails are super cute. I bought by first snail probably a year ago and the next day she laid eggs. And I mean like over 100. I sold a bunch of them and gave them to my friends two have tanks and I have two left right now. They are bright yellow.

9. Next summer I want to take a cruise to Hawaii, because I want to start traveling more and by then I'll be 21.

10. When I get my tax refund cheque in the mail, I'm going to get a new piercing! I haven't decided what I want to get done yet, but I think that I may get my tongue or my tongue web done....decisions, decisions.

Alright, there you have it! I managed to get out 10 things! Now to pass on the award.

Fat Girl vs. World @ I go through life in inches and pounds

Aylilth @ Making my way to a better me

Lisa Jones @ Jones's Weightloss Journey

Friday, July 9, 2010

Today is the LAST DAY!

Because I got an award the other day and I suck at coming up with 10 random things about myself that I have not already said, I am opening up the lines of communication and I'm giving you all the opporunity to ask me anything you want and I will be totally, 100%, painfully honest. Send me an email with your question(s) to MiaY238@gmail.comor you can comment on this post, asking me ANYTHING, and I mean anything, and I will link back to your blog in tomorrow's post, provided you tell me what your URL is. I have recieved a couple of emails but I would love to get some more questions. Seriously people, help me out and get a few laughs in the process if you ask the right questions!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

The HOT Weather is Here

A heat wave has hit Vancouver in a big way. It is so nice and toasty, a solid 25-32 degree Celcius outside this week. I wish I could be out enjoying the sun and tanning but I'm stuck in the mall at my kiosk. I mind at all though, there will be more nice weather coming and I love what I do.

I saw Nathan yesterday and did weights with him, or rather I did weights and he sat and watched me. It was a good work out and I really felt it when I was doing it but today, I don't feel as stiff and sore as I usually do, and I saw Nathan TWO DAYS IN A ROW! I feel like I worked hard but maybe it's just my body adjusting. Maybe my muscles are getting stronger and I don't have to writhe in pain for days after a strenuous work out?

In case you missed it, Karen over at Muffin Fixation honored me with the Sugar Doll award! Because I'm really bad at thinking of random things about me that I haven't already said, I'm opening up the phone lines, in a manner of speaking. Send me an email at with your questions and I will answer all of them on Saturday (so please try to get me your questions before Saturday morning). You could even get them to me on Facebook via my page, [238] and Shrinking. If you're not a fan already, you can sign up while you are there for exclusive content (read: the insignificant and random things I say that have nothing to do with weight loss or exercise)! You can ask me anything you like, and I promise to be 100% honest; it doesn't have to be even remotely blog/health/weight loss related.

As a little incentive to participate in this instead of just seeing the answers come out on Saturday, I will link back to your blog in the post, provided that you tell me what your blog is! Taddaa!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

LHA Weigh In and A Blog Award

First down to business. I weighed in this morning for my Long HOT Active Summer Challenge, we are in week 9 of a 16 week challenge, but before I reveal the result, I would like to share a quick run down of my week, or at least the past 5 days or so. I went out Saturday and Sunday night this past weekend, getting totally sloshed each night. Monday, all I had to eat was Mcdonald's to cure the wicked tequila hang over. I saw Nathan twice, once on Thursday and once yesterday, but other than that, I did not go to the gym because of my hectic schedule. My water intake has been the pits, but I haven't been paying attention to sodium so I expected to feel pretty gross. I haven't tracked any food for about 2 weeks, I don't even know where my food journal went. It may be hiding under the bed in rejection.

Journal:"You used to take me everywhere with you. I know you're out parading around with some skinnier, fancier journal, but the least you could do was tell me and I would move on!"  
 ME: "No, I swear it's not like that, I swear! I just need some space, it's not you, it's me."

But I digress...

Last week's weight: 222.8 lbs
This week's weight 220.5 lbs
Difference: -1.7lbs
Exercise minutes: 120

If I found the answer to weight loss in fatty food and rum, I'm going to be a freaking millionaire! LOL. I don't know how it happened really, but I'm happy with my numbers. My body fat, according to my scale, is down as well to 37.6% (I started around 40%). I'm half a pound away from my first weight loss reward, a Biggest Loser Cookbook. When I first got on my scale it said 219.5 and I was so happy but when I did it properly, entered my password so it had all my information to calculate my BMI, body fat% and whatnot, it read 220.5 after several attempts to get it back to 219, but that will be next week!

In other news, the lovely and marvelous Karen over at Muffin Fixation bestowed upon me the Sugar Doll award. It's so freaking pretty!

It is one of those awards where I have to tell you all 10 things about me that you don't know and I am crap at thinking of this stuff. I have two in mind, but here is what I'm going to do. From now until Friday night at 9pm PST, send me an email at asking me a question that you want to know the answer to. Anything and everything, it doesn't have to be remotely blog related. Want to know if I have pets or if I had crazy coloured hair as a teenager? Ask away my lovelies and I will post a full award post on Saturday when I'm at work.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

So that was something I never did before...

I went out last night with one of my new co-workers and a bunch of her friends (this isn't the thing that I hadn't done before, but my brother was surprised that I made a new friend so quickly) and we went out to this club in Vancouver. I spend the afternoon before this shopping for some new clothes to wear and I bought a short jean skirt from Old Navy and a top from Addition Elle. I have been to clubs before, but I had never been to this one so I didn't really know what to expect or what the scene was going to be like.

About 12 or so of us showed up around 11pm and there was a band just finishing their set, but we came to see this DJ who started close to midnight. Well, most of us got split up, I tried to stay with someone that I knew because I didn't want to be dancing on my own and I was drunk as a skunk. So there I was on the dance floor with one of the girls that I just met and we were having a pretty good time, (and this is the thing that has NEVER happened to me before) and guys actually came up and started dancing with us. It was practicially surreal to me. I danced with one guy for a while and then went and got another drink and when I got back on the floor with a few other people that I had just met, there was another guy that started dancing with me! And he was actually pretty cute (I think, but I'm not sure, everything was a bit hazy and the club was dark). But here I am, in totally uncharted territory and I don't know how to act and after the other girls that I was with went somewhere else, I went off in search of my friend from work and she was in the back corner totally making out with this guy who was wearing a touque of all things in July, in a hot and sweaty dance club!

I went back out on to the dance floor and found the first guy that was dancing with me and we started dancing together again, but then wouldn't you know it, we started, like, kissing and making out. I haven't said one word to this guy, we were just dancing, I don't even know his name, and we were all making out and such. I don't even know what compelled me to kiss him back. When I'm drinking, I feel more or less in control of my decisions, everything is just blurry and my balance is a little off. I knew that it was a stupid idea and totally out of character for me, but I did it anyways. The whole night, really, was a new experience. I've never had random guys pay any attention to me, but I had guys tell me that I'm hot and I had guys want to be close to me. Most of them were very likely inhibriated in some variety and in varying degrees, but I've never really felt like that in a public setting. I'm still trying to sort through all these new feelings and thoughts, it's a little overwhelming.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

LHA Weigh In

As swamped as I have been the last week, I have not forgotten about my LHA weigh in today. I jumped on the scale this morning before I ran off to work.

Last week: 224.4 lbs
This week: 222.5 lbs
Difference: -1.9 lbs
Exercise: 330 mins

So I lost the weight that I had gained last week! I was getting worried because I weighed myself on Saturday or Sunday and I was up to over 225 lbs so it must have been water, but it did scare me. I don't normally do weigh in's when it is not my weigh in day but this week has been super busy and I haven't tracked any of my food like I meant to (I think my journal hid under the bed, I have to find it). Quick run down of my hellish week thus far:

Friday: Wasn't too bad. I worked at Curves in the evening but it was stressful because my boss wanted to close the club July 3rd because she didn't think that anyone would be coming in. I work 9 hours a week at Curves and when she closes on Saturdays, I lose 5 hours. If she had a real reason to close, like a stat (the Canada day stat is Thursday, so we are closed that day already), I would understand but all the ladies that came in couldn't understand why she was closing. I know why; it's so she can save like $55, but she doesn't see that if she keeps closing on weekends to save a few bucks, she is going to lose members, costing her thousands of dollars over the course of the year and chasing away potential clients that want a gym with better business hours.

Saturday: Worked at Curves in the morning 8am-1pm. Sped home to give my 90 lbs beagle/lab dog who HATES water a bath because he seriously stunk. Hopped in the shower, did my hair and make-up then drove out to Richmond to volunteer for the roller derby!! Very exciting. I sold tickets at the door so it was easy and I got in for free, not to mention the free snacks and pizza after the bouts. I got home around 11pm then crashed into bed, missing the after party downtown which I would have love to been at.

Sunday: Started my job at Culture Craze in Burnaby! WOOHOO! I love my new job. I worked from 10:45am to 3pm, then I drove home and went to the gym until 6pm or so.

Monday: Working at my reception job in Vancouver. I worked from 9am to 5pm and then I drove home, flipping off several drivers in the process as I crawled over over the freeway and bridges. Once I got home, I ate dinner quickly and then went to the gym to see Nathan at 7pm to 8pm. We did weights and I still can't lift my arms for too long. I did some mild cardio after to walk off the stifness in my legs so I was home around 9pm again. Exhausted, I fell into bed.

Tuesday: Worked with my mom doing invoicing and filing at her job from 8:30am to 2pm then I had to race over to Burnaby again, getting stuck behind slow cars and red lights, to get to Culture Craze for 3pm. I worked there until 9:15pm and I got home around 10ish again.

Today: More work with my mom at 8:30am. I left at 2 and I got a quick breather before I start at Culture Craze again tonight from 4pm to 9:15pm. I get to work with the boss-man tonight, so I hope it goes well and he doesn't change his mind about hiring me because I love working there too much!

Hopefully with tomorrow being Canada day, I get to sleep in a bit before I have to clean my tornado wrecked room and go see Nathan again at 4pm!

I hope you're all having a good weigh in day, I don't have the time to check out my competitors' blogs just yet but I hope it all goes well for you!

Busy like Bees

Just a quick note to say that I intend to be back soon! I hope to get a good post in tomorrow. I've been super duper busy. Since Friday, I've worked everyday somewhere: Curves, my Vancouver reception job, I just started at Culture Craze and my mom has me doing invoicing at her office. So I have been seriously busy and I haven't had a chance to blog. My google reader says that I have 122 unread items and it's still early today! I saw Nathan on Monday and I'm also going to see him again tomorrow, I just wish that I was able to get to the gym between then and tomorrow but I'm at my mom's office today until 2 and then I have to drive to my job at Culture Craze and I work there until 9:15pm. By then, I'll have been on my feet for several hours and there is no way I'm going to want to rush off to the gym before it closes at 11pm.

I'm looking forward to getting back to blogging and reading all your blogs. How is everyone else's week going? How do you stay fit and healthy when you are swamped with work and duties?

Friday, June 25, 2010

Yes, It Has Come to This...

I'm going to talk about something that has been raising eyebrows across the blogosphere as of late. It is a reoccurring theme that pops up every now and then, and it has reared it head (of sorts). Keep in mind, I didn't start this. If you're going to blame anyone, ANYONE, for what you are about to read, blame Mrs. Fatass @ "Did I Just Eat that Out Loud?" (if you don't follow her, you really ought to, she cracks me up). Well a few months ago she posted "Hello, Kitty (part one)" (and then there was a follow up recently "Hello, Kitty (part two)") in response to Drazil's post about this whole issue. Bikini waxing and maintenance of the hair down there. Unlike Mrs. Fatass, I am a little hairier than most girls. Well, I may not be hairier, but I have dark, thick hair on my head and it just grows that way. I have always had hairy arms and I hated it.

A few weeks ago, I was complaining to a friend of mine about how often I have to shave my legs and it seems that I am always missing a good chunk of it, and it's always the same chunk. I'll look at my legs one night and find a hair or two that are at least 3 times longer then anything around it. I'll even go over that part several times and feel down m legs when I'm in the shower thinking that I got it all, only to exit and an hour later find a stubborn hair. Well, my friend said that she uses a hair removal cream so she doesn't have to shave as often. Interesting. I bought one years ago but it made my skin feel weird, not to mention the burning hair scent that lingered around the bathroom for an hour or two, prompting my brother to ask "What in the hell did you do in there?!". But the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to try it again, so with a fresh paycheque in the bank, I went to Wal-Mart. There is a whole freaking aisle of hair removal crap but I tried not to hang around too long or grab too many bottles and boxes on the way out as not to raise suspicion of HOW MUCH hair removal I truly need. Well, when I was there I was thinking about Mrs. Fatass and Drazil and that has grown in the time that I have been single.

I used to shave once in a while, but I always got the bumpies and it just made me look like I had some crazy STI after an hour or two. Not too attractive. Well, wouldn't you know it, they keep the waxing kits next to the hair burning creams. My interest was peaked. I could try it. Could be interesting. On a side note, I have a seriously overactive imagination so I have this reocurring daydream that me and some hot faceless guy with an accent meet and totally hit it off but then I am terrified because my coochie looks like a beaver that stuck it's tail in an electrical outlet. I bought a binkini/face kit because my lip was getting a little dark, something I have never had to worry about before, and left the store (with the hair cream as well) trying not to attract too much attention to myself.

I waited until much later to attempt the de-furring. After commiting the instructions to memory, I started with my lip. The little wax stips look so innocent in the pretty box and they were even a nice calming green. This can't be that bad, I've had my eyebrows threaded which hurt, this can't be any worse than that. I put the wax on my upper lip and rubbed it down. I mentally prepped myself and 3...2...1...RIP.


My lip went numb. And then I knew that I had to do the other side. Again, it burned. I was suddently very wary of trying the bikini set, so instead I put the cream crap on my legs and then got in the shower (the bottle said the cream was water resistant and you had to wait a minute before getting the shower, which I did, but the cream mostly washed off when I got in the shower). I still hadn't totally dismissed the idea of the bikini wax and I thought that I would try it after I got out of the shower. The skin would be a little bit softer and maybe it would hurt less. Well, I tired to position myself so that I could look in the mirror at the same time to make sure I wasn't going to rip anything too important. I put the wax strip on and held my breath. 3...2...1...PULLLLL!!

HOLYMOT....hey wait a minute...

If I had to say which one hurt more, I would truly have to say my lip, and I was not expecting that. The bikini wax was alright, there was some blood, yes, (and now the morning after, there is some bruising that actually looks like a hickey, but trust me, it's no hickey, [I don't think I held the skin tight enough])but it didn't hurt nearly as bad as I thought it was going to. I didn't do the whole bit, just the edges, but I have a feeling that the closer you get to the mmmhhhmm-hmm the more it hurts. I think that when I get some cash I'm going to pay a professional to do it and I'm going to bring my waxing-experienced friend with me for moral support. Because that's what girlfriends are for, to hold your hand while a total stranger rips out your pubies.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Alright, enough of the stalling...

Let's get this over with.

Last week: 222.8 lbs
This week: 224.4 lbs
Difference: +1.6 lbs
Exercise Minutes: 205 mins

Worst week for exercise since the beginning of this challenge and the eating wasn't great either. I can take it in stride, I can't expect for perfect numbers every week, especially when I don't put the effort in.

In other news, I got one of the jobs that I was interviewed for last week!! I'm going to be selling body jewelry at a kiosk in this really big mall in Vancouver. I know it doesn't sound great but I am passionate about piercings and body jewelry and they are going to be giving me full time hours. With any luck, I'll be able to buy a car in a couple months or so. I don't know what I am going to do about my job at Curves yet, I really love working there but my boss is kind of crazy and I hate trying to juggle two jobs when I have to do shift work. I'll have to wait and see how it turns out.

This coming week on the weight loss front, I really have to get back to tracking my food and exercise. I didn't exercise at all between Friday and Monday which is why I had such low numbers this week. I really need to get on this, I can't spend any more time working at half capacity.

PS: I FINALLY added pictures to my "1000 Words in Pictures" section, click the tab at the top of the page to check it out if you haven't yet. Some pictures are pretty old, a few newer ones too. There is also an excert from my very first blog post on "The Starting Line" page.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Who is Your Thinspiration?

One of my main problems when I'm trying to eat healthy is stopping myself from eating when I'm bored and one way that I deal with it is by thinking about what I really want out of my life. I think about how much better I'm going to feel when I'm thinner and healthy and how much more confident I will feel. If I still need an extra boost when I'm feeling down, I pull out my thin pictures, a.k.a. "Thinspiration". They are pictures I keep around of my favorite celebs and when I need a bit of a refresher, I take a peek at some of these wonderful ladies. 

Like Kate Winslet.

Or Kelly Clarkson.


And one of my new favorite women, Idina Menzel.

Who is your thinspiration?

Reading this back this morning, I felt that I needed to add an addendum. I know that the term "Thinspiration" is very much a part of the pro-ana community, but I don't think that because it is, it should be a negative word. This blog originally started as an anti-ana blog, but that is a whole other story to tell at a later time. When I think of my personal thinspiration (it is a very clever word actually), I think of real women. My thinspiration will always be curvy women. I love my hips and my boobs, they define me as a woman that I want to be.

I hope that people reading my post don't take it the wrong way. I am not supporting the anorexic lifestyle (for some it is a lifestyle and for others it is a disorder) and I hope that they get the help they need before it's too late and they hurt themselves. If you want to address me privately about this issue,  please do not hesitate to email me, my email for my blog is

OMG Did I Really Eat That?!

Here is what my weekend looked like:

Saturday: Working at 8am, didn't really get a chance to pack a breakfast so I went out to Tim Horton's and got a breakfast sandwich, yogurt, and a large steeped tea, 2 milk 2 sugar. Came home around 1pm and totally forgot that Sunday was Father's Day until my mom asked me what I was getting my dad....what, just because I'm almost 20 means I have to start buying him stuff on special occasions?? WTF... I then waited for my brother to get home from camping to ask him what he wanted to get for my dad. My dad LOVES margaritas and Jimmy Buffet so being the legal-aged sibling, I went out to the liquor store and bought a 2-6 of Jose Cuervo and while I'm on the topic: why is the tequila the most-freaking-expensive liquor out there???

My parents and I were going out to an Australian-Rules Football (Footy) fundraiser as my mom is the league's treasurer. Footy is a bit like rugby but very popular down under and in Vancouver, there is footy league which is one of only a handful across Canada. There are boys and girls of all ages that play, even an adult league, and they go to Australia once a year and play against some teams down there. This was a fundraiser to send the U-18 boys to Australia. It is a 19+ event and because I am on the hunt for a new boy toy, I had to get myself ready. My eyebrows looked like a flippin' forest so I went to the little East Indian place around the corner and got my eyebrows threaded and then got my my gel nails filled because they were seriously grown out. All of this was wasted as I was the youngest person at this fundraiser by at least a decade. It was mostly the parents of the kids who have played footy.

So with all of this running around and getting ready, I managed to pretty much forget about eating or drinking my water for most of the day. After my crap-tacular breakfast in the morning, I don't think that I ate again until 6pm or so when I had roast chicken, potato salad and caesar salad. It was a long span of not eating but because I was busy and not thinking about it, I wasn't hungry at all. I ate again later at the dance but I had 2 slices of pizza around 11pm, after two coolers and a screwdriver.

Sunday: Father's Day. I woke up around 8:30, thankfully hang-over free. There was a World of Warcraft thing going on online at 10am that I was getting ready for so I didn't eat breakfast until noon or so. Again, a very long time of being awake without eating and then what did I have for breakfast? Eggs benedict. Not really the epitome of healthy eating. My parents, brother and I then went down to see my Grampa and visit with him for awhile and my Nana served date squars with creamy tea. Dinner was very tasty but alright for healthy stuff. We had veggie and chicken kabobs which were great and we also had lobster for the first time ever at home! It was more entertaining to watch us try and get the meat out than anything, but of course, there was also melted butter to go with it. I had some but then I just felt sick after and I'm still not feeling all that great. I did go for a walk in the evening with the dog but on the exercise front, nothing really good since Thursday.

Today, I'm working in a Vancouver office answering phones and I won't be off until 5pm and home around 6:30pm. I would really like to go to the gym and do some cardio, so I'm going to cross my fingers and hope that I get there by 7. I'm also going to start seeing my trainer, Nathan, twice a week from now on, instead of just once a week. I can't find it in me to do weights on my own so maybe if I can start getting back in the habit of doing it, I'll be able to keep it up. My goals for this week are as follows:
  • Drink my 8 cups of water a day. (I read in the paper this morning that to find out how much water you need in a day, take your weight in pounds, divide it in half and then that number is the number of ounces your body needs of water in a day. 111 oz seems like a LOT)
  • Get back to jounalling my food. I have gotten away from the that in the past week and I really need to get that back on track.
  • Exercise. Period.
I'm not setting a goal weight lose this week because my time of the month is being a little crazy right now. All the anticiapation (bloating, soreness, crabbiness) with none of the...well you know, so I have no clue about what my weight is doing right now.

One final word, I wanted to share a blog with you all, her name is Nadeen Boman and she is a nutrition specialist from Vancouver. She works with Tommy Europe, a personal trainer and former CFL player, on two Canadian weight loss shows, Bulging Brides and The Last 10 Pounds. She hasn't updated it in a while but I just found it, and she has lots of tips and advice for men and women trying to lose weight. Check it out here.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Why I Do This Here

This will be on Jack Sh*t's blog but I thought I would post it for you guys and gals first :)

Let's get Funky!

Once Upon a Diet tagged all her blog readers in the Funky 5 MeMe (WTF is a MeMe?? Anywho, it's beside the point) and because I didn't think that you would all want to read about how tired and sore I am from seeing Nathan yesterday, this seemed fun.

Where were you 5 years ago?
  • Oh lets see, I was 14. Me and my then-boyfriend Ian had just started dating. I was just finishing grade 9 and getting ready to go off to school in another district to do a program that was not offered at any school near me, so I went off to live with my grandparents in White Rock. It was only about 15 minutes away from my house down the highway, so it wasn't too too far away. With my grandparents, I lived not too far away from where this picture was taken (see below).

Where would you like to be 5 years from now?
  • I would like to be working full time and moved out from my parents house, hopefully with someone I could see myself marrying eventually, on my way to living my own life. I would like to have graduated from university with my Bachelor of Arts degree and then move on to teaching or writing.
5 things on your to do list today
  • Clean my room. Because of my severe distaste for folding laundry my room looks like a war zone right now.
  • Eat a healthy breakfast and lunch, balanced in healthy fat, protein and carbs.
  • Go to the gym and do some cardio for an hour or so, I didn't get a great workout with Nathan yesterday because I was feeling so achy and sore when I woke up, I was out of bed for an hour or so and then I went back to bed until 1pm. My appointment was at 2 so I didn't have time to really get a good meal in because I had to walk to the gym as well and I left after having eated a banana. So, not even 20 minutes into my workout I was feeling faint and dizzy. The first time in 13 weeks of seeing Nathan that I come not having eaten properly, he gives me a hard time and I don't think that I'm going to hear the last of it LOL but I do know better than that.
  • Drink lots of water, my water intake has been failig a bit and I need to start drinking more.
  • Do the "Oh Mr.Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun, please shine down on me" dance. Today was supposed to be nice but it is totally overcast out.
5 snacks you enjoy
  • Raw, unsalted almonds.
  • Blueberries with greek style yogurt
  • Sweet and Salty Nature's Path bars
  • Popcorn
  • Hardboiled eggs
What are 5 things you would do if you were a billionaire?
  • Buy a swanky penthouse in dowtown Vancouver next door to Michael Bublé (who is my husband, FYI, and living next door would help him figure it out sooner). It would have a nice big stainless steel kitchen, a grand master bedroom with a large ensuite, jacuzzi tub, and flawless view of Stanley Park and Coal Harbour. I would also have an exercise room and a library/office with books everywhere. Oh yeah, and a few maids to clean the kitchen after I cook (I love cooking my own food) and to do the laundry.

  • Buy Nathan. Not even kidding, I would buy him and make him come live with me so he could cook my meals, work me out and whatnot.
  • I'd do the nice things like pay off my parents' house and give them the money they would need to retire on, as well as my best friend.
  • I would travel all over the globe, several times over, starting in Europe and working my way down to Austrailia. I would spend a lot of time travelling, I love seeing new things.
  • I would do some volunteer work, in what area, I don't know but I would want to give back and start trust funds and scholorships for students interested in teaching, health and nutrition.
Again, I'm tagging ALL OF YOU! If you have not been tagged and want to do it, go for it! All I ask is that you link back to me that I made you do it LOL. Hope everyone is having a great day and that the sun is shining for you!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Giving Back

This morning, Lisa over at "Can I buy another vowel? Going from Fat to Fit!" made my day and honored me with the Beautiful Blogger Award. The conditions for this award are to pass on the award to 7 other bloggers and to post 7 things about me that you don't know. So before I strain my head trying to figure out what to say about myself, I'm going to pass on the award:

  1. Christine @ Exquisite_Christine: I wanted to pass this on to Christine for helping to bring together all the LHA participants and for her daily affirmations.
  2. Karen @ *FiTCETERA*: I love her visual food journal, it's so colourful and she brightens my day.
  3. Chris @ A Deliberate Life: Chris has had so much success in her weight loss transformation, she is such an inspiring lady!
  4. Karen @ Muffin Fixation: I love Karen for her comments to my blog and for her lovely blog as well.
  5. Flabby McGee: This lady has been through so much, she is a great inspiration to me.
  6.  Christie @ He Took MY Last Name: In the short time I have followed her blog, I have come to love this lady. She just started on her journey a few months ago and she is making great progress.
  7. Skinny Me...Coming Soon! She is such a sweet lady, I love her blog. She is getting married in less than 2 months and she looks fabulous.
Congrats to all, it was hard choosing only 7 people. I follow so many blogs and I love feeling that I'm getting to know so many people. Now to let you all get to know me a little better:

  1. I love the girlie shows that are on Slice and TLC like the wedding shows (LOVE wedding shows), the baby shows, the cake shows, all of it. It's my guilty pleasure.
  2. I hate folding clothes. I will wash the laundry but when it comes to folding it, I would rather dump in on my bed and move it back and forth from the floor so I can sleep at night to the point that I have another full load of laundry to do before I even consider putting it away.
  3. I can actually sing pretty well but I never had the guts to try out for Canadian Idol and now I regret it because the show has been put on hiatus. 
  4. I love the sunshine and the heat. In the summer, I'll often hang out on my back deck all day just reading and listening to music.
  5. I don't like going to the movies. I find the theaters too cold and busy, it's way overpriced and I just couldn't be bothered. If it a movie that I am really looking forward to and have heard about a lot, if it is based on a book that I have read or something, I'll go out with my friends, but just to go out and see a movie that just came out for the sake of seeing it, I have no patience for that.
  6. I worked at Tim Horton's for about a year and half when I was 15 and everyone I talked to that worked there said that after a month or two, you'll get tired of the doughnuts. I didn't LOL. I didn't gain a lot of weight, I lost weight at first because of being on my feet and walking around for 7 and 8 hours but then I started gaining weight again but I've been gaining weight more or less consistently for my whole life. I was promoted to supervisor but the manager had an issue with me personally and I was fired for stupid things and then a few months later, another girl who was promoted at the same time was fired for stealing $1000+ from the store. This was a girl that the manager LOVED. I tried not to rub it in her face that she got rid of a good employee for nothing.
  7. I want a Smartcar. That is my dream car and hopefully when I get a full time job, I'll be able to get one!
That list was seriously hard to come up with! I want to thank Lisa again and wish everyone the best week!

Awards and Weigh Ins and Facebook, OH MY!

Oh em GEE! I have so much stuff to talk about in this post I had to take notes to remember it all, but even then, I think that I forgot something.

First off, today is My Long Hot Active Summer Challenge weigh in day. Here are the numbers:

Last week: 223.5 lbs
This week: 222.8 lbs
Difference: -0.7 lbs
Minutes of activity: 395 mins (6 hours and 35 mins)

Not as much activity as I would have liked but I just wasn't feeling into it this week at the gym and all things considered, I'm happy that I lost weight this week. I didn't make my original goal of getting down to 220 this week to score my first reward (Biggest Loser Cookbook), but I reached my amended goal of weighing less than I did last week! I thought that I would be losing weight faster than I am. Looking around the blogs, I see lots of people dropping more weight per week while working out (as far as I can tell from their descriptions) less. Granted, my eating this week wasn't perfect, but even on my best eating weeks I see little gratification on the scale and in my clothes. I've been working hard but it's proving to be very difficult for me to lose weight. Being over 220 lbs and almost 20 years old, I have to lose weight eventually with all the exercise and healthy eating. I don't really think that it would possible for me to stay at this weight while working towards being healthy. I know that the scale only tells part of the story but I can only be a certain degree of healthy at 220 lbs. I just have to remember to be patient, I'm not going to give up.

Secondly, I got my very first award thanks to Lisa, a wonderful lady and a fellow LHA challenge participant, @ "Can I buy another vowel? Going from Fat to Fit!" I'm very pleased to be recieving this award and I would love to thank all the little people (read: future skinnies) for reading my blog. When I first started blogging and saw that I had followers, I was dumbfounded that people were actually reading what I wrote and when I started getting comments, I was overjoyed. It makes my day that someone took the time to comment on something that I wrote, it means the world to me! The conditions for this award are as follows:

  • Pass the award on to 7 other beautiful bloggers
  • Reveal 7 things about myself that I have not previously mentioned
Those conditions will be met in another post, hopefully later tonight, so stayed tuned for that!

Thirdly, I started a Facebook page for my blog, [238] and Shrinking. I was going to link it to my personal Facebook page but as a "public figure" page I can link it to my Twitter account, @MiaY238, and update both of my statuses at the same time. Check it out, the badge is on the right hand side of my posts.

Plan for the day:
  • Eat well
  • Go see Nathan at 2pm, I saw him yesterday briefly and said "Hi" and he complained about being sore from his chest work out (hold on while I pry my mind out of the gutter concerning Nathan's chest). I had no sympathy for him and said "Oh, you poor thing". He smiled and said "Just wait, I'm going to make you cry tomorrow" to which I replied "Good, I look forward to it."
  • Post my award recipient blog
  • Cross my fingers and hope for a call that tells me I got a job (I rocked both of my job interviews yesterday. I'm hoping for one more than the other; even though I would make less money, it would something I enjoy more and less stressful)
Good luck to everyone weighing in or working out today!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Obese is a four letter word...really, it is.

I am obese.

My BMI is 38.4 and that classifies me as mobidly obese by some standards or class two obesity.

I've improved. When I started this blog, my BMI was 40.9. I was super obese. I didn't even know that that was a term people used. Super obese makes it sound like a pseudo crime fighter that sits on its foes with jelly doughnuts in hand, waiting for the cops to show up.

I don't even get to be classified as overweight until I reach 174 lbs and my BMI will measure 29.9
I need to lose 50 lbs before I can say that I am overweight. Little depressing much?

I don't think that I have ever admitted to being obese. If I had to talk about it, I would always say that I was overweight, but I said it for the first time in my last blog post. What is even more of a wake up call is that I realized it was the first time too, immediately after I did it. I don't even like the sound of the word on my tongue. The wide Ob- makes the word all soft and round. The -ese feels greasy and slippery. Even in the social conscious, obesity is a dirty word, but it is formal at the same time. We don't say obese is day to day conversation. It is literally the elephant in the room, but I'm going to come right out and say it: I am obese.

I place a lot of significance in the BMI scale because I am not a body builder, but I am aware that it is not a good scale for everyone to use. I am 5'4 with an average bone structure.